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hmmmm lot has happend latly. most of it today wasnt that great though.... lets start with the fun stuff.... went to sam bday party im preaty sure she is out to kill me she chucked a damn baseball as hard as she could and broke me damn finger go to V night suposed to be the best part of the night amanda was sposed to come with me but she couldnt meet up with Roger I have alwaysed liked him i think he is cool but he told me something i wasnt really ready for *sigh* just not sure what to do i meen i wish at least the person who it should have come out of it would have would have made thing much better and i would be so damn grrrr yeah i do know what words to use all i know is it is not cool and now i feel sick well at least it is roger and not some dumb ass who is stupid just wish i could have found out another way.
"This is What Life is"
i've determined that at this day and age everyones life sucks. and its not how bad it sucks that you should be measured by but how well your dealing with the suckage.
I think it is true but why dont we try to get out of it and face our fears.
Ocne again my biggest fear bite me in the ass the fear of not being good enough for someone you love
Why do i leave myself open like this
Why do i make is so easy to step on me
Because i would like to beliave one day there will be some one you cares
The past thoughs and some current ones of my mind
"talking to myself"
Why do i do this
Your not very smart
i know im not i just....
you just what think someone will care
yes that would be nice
then you have fialed your self
why is that?
you siad you wouldnt care again
i lied
you lied to yourself
what am i sposed to do lock myself up
If that is what it takes
...... but that isnt what i want
Do they CARE what YOU want?
i hope so
you hope but you dont know
you are right
you will never get what you want someone just to be there with you no matter what is going on and what people say and do to you. You always seem to be able to stand up when the hard times come but they fall and cruble they dont want it like you do even though it is so freely given.
What an i sposed to do?
I cry for you tonight
you cry i dont want your pity it isnt your fualt
but you diserve so much better.... you diserve some one to love you back and be albe to stand through the hard times....i pity you
you day i will have her the one i am sposed to have the one who care and the one who loves me i i sow these cut closed and keep my heart open just for her
Love for Death.
These thing that radomly come to my head dont they make you think what part of my story you help play or do you just pity me too.
Things from the top of my head goodbye and good night,
Love for Death,
Stephen
"This is What Life is"
i've determined that at this day and age everyones life sucks. and its not how bad it sucks that you should be measured by but how well your dealing with the suckage.
I think it is true but why dont we try to get out of it and face our fears.
Ocne again my biggest fear bite me in the ass the fear of not being good enough for someone you love
Why do i leave myself open like this
Why do i make is so easy to step on me
Because i would like to beliave one day there will be some one you cares
The past thoughs and some current ones of my mind
"talking to myself"
Why do i do this
Your not very smart
i know im not i just....
you just what think someone will care
yes that would be nice
then you have fialed your self
why is that?
you siad you wouldnt care again
i lied
you lied to yourself
what am i sposed to do lock myself up
If that is what it takes
...... but that isnt what i want
Do they CARE what YOU want?
i hope so
you hope but you dont know
you are right
you will never get what you want someone just to be there with you no matter what is going on and what people say and do to you. You always seem to be able to stand up when the hard times come but they fall and cruble they dont want it like you do even though it is so freely given.
What an i sposed to do?
I cry for you tonight
you cry i dont want your pity it isnt your fualt
but you diserve so much better.... you diserve some one to love you back and be albe to stand through the hard times....i pity you
you day i will have her the one i am sposed to have the one who care and the one who loves me i i sow these cut closed and keep my heart open just for her
Love for Death.
These thing that radomly come to my head dont they make you think what part of my story you help play or do you just pity me too.
Things from the top of my head goodbye and good night,
Love for Death,
Stephen