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I do plan on giving a life update at some point, in an almost certainly going-to-be-locked post. Honestly. Lately, I've just been having the motivation to write only about things that do not really matter.
For instance, I woke at 6:30AM today for errands that needed to be done at that time. I got home at 9:30AM.
In a fit of stubbornness, I convinced myself that 9:30 was too late in the day to reasonably go back to sleep. So I stayed awake... And got more tired.
At 10:30AM, I had the same internal dialogue, but now with the added premise of it being even later in the day.
This has happened mentally every 5-7 minutes since. ("I'm tired. I should go back to sleep. But no! It's already x time! I'll just tough it out.... And get more tired...")
My dilemmas: they seem so much more important at the time than they will hours later.
For instance, I woke at 6:30AM today for errands that needed to be done at that time. I got home at 9:30AM.
In a fit of stubbornness, I convinced myself that 9:30 was too late in the day to reasonably go back to sleep. So I stayed awake... And got more tired.
At 10:30AM, I had the same internal dialogue, but now with the added premise of it being even later in the day.
This has happened mentally every 5-7 minutes since. ("I'm tired. I should go back to sleep. But no! It's already x time! I'll just tough it out.... And get more tired...")
My dilemmas: they seem so much more important at the time than they will hours later.