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I'm scared.
I'm really scared to say the least.
I'm scared of finishing community service.
I'm scared of no one being in my classes.
I'm scared of being forgotten.
I'm just scared.
But I shouldn't be.
Though I'm scared, I'm so happy.
I happy for everyone that's leaving.
but I'm sad
because I love them so much
and I'm sad
because I don't know if they know how much I do
and maybe that's my fault
and I'm hopeful
I hope they get everything they want
cause it's everything they deserve.
I hope they realize how much they'll be missed
and how they're always welcome here.
and for everybody not leaving,
well I love them too
and I miss them too
and they deserve everything too
and they're still welcome.
my own life, and my own struggles has left me lost and confused
I don't really even know who I am
and everyone who knows me knows I've been a bit sick
for a long time
and I've been caught up
and I'm sorry
know that seeing your faces for the first time everyday made me feel safe
by the lockers (with cereal)
during whittle
on stairway four
in the band room
in the hallway by the girls locker room between 3rd and 4th
lunch 5th period
maybe I haven't been happy but just know that all of that made me happy.
my time with you made me happy.
I'm gonna stay happy cause of all the memories
I know you're all gonna make your own memories
both with me and independent of me
I hope it makes you happy
I know you're probably all scared too
for different reasons
maybe you're leaving,
maybe your best friends are leaving
maybe you have to finish your community service
maybe you can't believe how fast your life went
...no, wait..that's everyone I think
it's gonna be fine, I don't think there's anyway it won't be fine
it'll be good.
it's just a lot.
it's a lot because
despite the fact that I know I'm gonna be fine, that we'll all be fine
I know that
before I even realize it
it'll be a year later
I'll be packing
and I call into question my judgement
there's no way to know how things will turn out
but something tells me this year will be good
people wait their whole lives
people wait their whole lives for senior year
people wait their whole lives to go to college
I don't really have to wait anymore
I'm still impatient to leave this place,
but maybe it's not about waiting
maybe we all should just live,
and take advantage of the time we have left together
and take advantage of the time we have to make our own paths
I'd be lying if I said that I didn't miss the way our lives were
I just want someone to promise me it's gonna be just as great
but I guess I don't need anybody to
because anytime I see or speak to any of you
I know that it's gonna be great
I just want everyone to know that I love them
and I'm sorry for every moment I've taken you for granted
everything's gonna be great.
I'm really scared to say the least.
I'm scared of finishing community service.
I'm scared of no one being in my classes.
I'm scared of being forgotten.
I'm just scared.
But I shouldn't be.
Though I'm scared, I'm so happy.
I happy for everyone that's leaving.
but I'm sad
because I love them so much
and I'm sad
because I don't know if they know how much I do
and maybe that's my fault
and I'm hopeful
I hope they get everything they want
cause it's everything they deserve.
I hope they realize how much they'll be missed
and how they're always welcome here.
and for everybody not leaving,
well I love them too
and I miss them too
and they deserve everything too
and they're still welcome.
my own life, and my own struggles has left me lost and confused
I don't really even know who I am
and everyone who knows me knows I've been a bit sick
for a long time
and I've been caught up
and I'm sorry
know that seeing your faces for the first time everyday made me feel safe
by the lockers (with cereal)
during whittle
on stairway four
in the band room
in the hallway by the girls locker room between 3rd and 4th
lunch 5th period
maybe I haven't been happy but just know that all of that made me happy.
my time with you made me happy.
I'm gonna stay happy cause of all the memories
I know you're all gonna make your own memories
both with me and independent of me
I hope it makes you happy
I know you're probably all scared too
for different reasons
maybe you're leaving,
maybe your best friends are leaving
maybe you have to finish your community service
maybe you can't believe how fast your life went
...no, wait..that's everyone I think
it's gonna be fine, I don't think there's anyway it won't be fine
it'll be good.
it's just a lot.
it's a lot because
despite the fact that I know I'm gonna be fine, that we'll all be fine
I know that
before I even realize it
it'll be a year later
I'll be packing
and I call into question my judgement
there's no way to know how things will turn out
but something tells me this year will be good
people wait their whole lives
people wait their whole lives for senior year
people wait their whole lives to go to college
I don't really have to wait anymore
I'm still impatient to leave this place,
but maybe it's not about waiting
maybe we all should just live,
and take advantage of the time we have left together
and take advantage of the time we have to make our own paths
I'd be lying if I said that I didn't miss the way our lives were
I just want someone to promise me it's gonna be just as great
but I guess I don't need anybody to
because anytime I see or speak to any of you
I know that it's gonna be great
I just want everyone to know that I love them
and I'm sorry for every moment I've taken you for granted
everything's gonna be great.