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Substance abuse is an excuse to use
the confidence you reserved all day as an introvert
Controverted to all things averted from... me
Egotistically I fall down low low low low ever so low
Finally today, I worshipped the moments that went by without my thoughts about you
Instantly I was reminded, depressed, resisted, saddened...
Don't you understand?
How could you be so free without me?
I am so fucking lost and its costing me so much.
I picture you happy with another and it kills me every single time.
I thought my karma was served before, but I was wrong.
The torment and sufffering I see now every day is more than enough to undo the suffering I caused you.
I was so immature and now I am sure that all I endure is due to my impure act.
All I want is to be with you or see you or hear you or touch you and oh my god HOLD YOU.
It has been hell dreaming of you and waking up alone and again, this matters nothing to you.
This matters nothing to you, because finally you are free from agony and disrespect.
I hate myself every day for all the mistakes I made disrespecting you.
I hate myself every day.
I could do everything I can and nothing could stand to make the change I just wish would... change.
I love you so much, I miss you so much, I need you so much, without you I'm so fucking lost.
Again again again again
I love you so much, I miss you so much, I need you so much, without you I'm so fucking lost.
Everything everything reminds me of everything you ever were to me everything I see.
Everything everything remidns me of everything you ever were to me everything I see.
The one song I wrote about you I perfect it every day, one day you will hear it, one day you won't care.
One day.
One day.
Soon.
Soon.
Too soon.
I won't be able to take it.
the confidence you reserved all day as an introvert
Controverted to all things averted from... me
Egotistically I fall down low low low low ever so low
Finally today, I worshipped the moments that went by without my thoughts about you
Instantly I was reminded, depressed, resisted, saddened...
Don't you understand?
How could you be so free without me?
I am so fucking lost and its costing me so much.
I picture you happy with another and it kills me every single time.
I thought my karma was served before, but I was wrong.
The torment and sufffering I see now every day is more than enough to undo the suffering I caused you.
I was so immature and now I am sure that all I endure is due to my impure act.
All I want is to be with you or see you or hear you or touch you and oh my god HOLD YOU.
It has been hell dreaming of you and waking up alone and again, this matters nothing to you.
This matters nothing to you, because finally you are free from agony and disrespect.
I hate myself every day for all the mistakes I made disrespecting you.
I hate myself every day.
I could do everything I can and nothing could stand to make the change I just wish would... change.
I love you so much, I miss you so much, I need you so much, without you I'm so fucking lost.
Again again again again
I love you so much, I miss you so much, I need you so much, without you I'm so fucking lost.
Everything everything reminds me of everything you ever were to me everything I see.
Everything everything remidns me of everything you ever were to me everything I see.
The one song I wrote about you I perfect it every day, one day you will hear it, one day you won't care.
One day.
One day.
Soon.
Soon.
Too soon.
I won't be able to take it.