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hmm....what to do today?
maybe go downtown, play music on the street.
maybe go to the evergreen campus, check out the librairy,
maybe talk to a guidance counselor about getting into school,
maybe sit at a coffee shop all day and read a book
there's a few options, I just don't want to sit around the house all day.
and I think one of the most depressing feelings is reading a book on
ADHD and then getting distracted and wandering off, the only reason
I was able to read it so long was the guilt factor.
As an adult I can manage it a little, I've learned to listen to people,
I can read books, it's the only way I can rationalize not going to school.
I do experience rejection a lot, but I've learned to take it gracefully,
I've learned to have thick skin, I've learned to hyperfocus on some things.
I'm still impulsive--hence moving far from home with no real plans....
Low self-esteem, it gets better but only through simple things like showering
every day, brushing my teeth a lot, sleeping and eating well, taking vitamins,
I have to force myself to do these things though,
But not being able to stay in college for very long, still really bothers me,
and when I call up my folks that's the only thing they seem to focus on,
because I have an IQ of 135, I'm damn smart I should be in school,
And I read books, they get hung up on that shit, like if you have a passion for reading you should be in college.
I don't know, I love my family and that they push me with college, I'm struggling
to understand how to cope with ADHD, and figure out how to manage it if I go to
college again,
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know,
have a good day.
maybe go downtown, play music on the street.
maybe go to the evergreen campus, check out the librairy,
maybe talk to a guidance counselor about getting into school,
maybe sit at a coffee shop all day and read a book
there's a few options, I just don't want to sit around the house all day.
and I think one of the most depressing feelings is reading a book on
ADHD and then getting distracted and wandering off, the only reason
I was able to read it so long was the guilt factor.
As an adult I can manage it a little, I've learned to listen to people,
I can read books, it's the only way I can rationalize not going to school.
I do experience rejection a lot, but I've learned to take it gracefully,
I've learned to have thick skin, I've learned to hyperfocus on some things.
I'm still impulsive--hence moving far from home with no real plans....
Low self-esteem, it gets better but only through simple things like showering
every day, brushing my teeth a lot, sleeping and eating well, taking vitamins,
I have to force myself to do these things though,
But not being able to stay in college for very long, still really bothers me,
and when I call up my folks that's the only thing they seem to focus on,
because I have an IQ of 135, I'm damn smart I should be in school,
And I read books, they get hung up on that shit, like if you have a passion for reading you should be in college.
I don't know, I love my family and that they push me with college, I'm struggling
to understand how to cope with ADHD, and figure out how to manage it if I go to
college again,
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know,
have a good day.