Dear Ex Dez
I hate fucking LJ but im going to write shit so you shut up.
first of all my band didnt fuck up because choices alone. portland doesnt take indie rock or old school punk so with all the emo shit we werent getting the same sales even from colleges. so i made a choice wait it out or leave. i stayed they didnt and thats why they left not me. i hired a dude from Jamestown named Max R and a drummer from portland. it sucked starting again but i gave it a shot k?
another thing. i didnt even know Emily it was like 4 years ago Mol, i only knew you as a friend for about 3. im not this horny bastard, yeah i make mistakes but i lost the fucking love of my life because of my attempt to better myself in Portland, which failed. k?
So without Kristin i really dont give a shit except about my music and me. i cant stand how things turned out. i hear all these rumors. but i dont hear anything from you. we talk about stupid shit. i want to talk about the past. and the parts we missed. i want to stay together. who cared if we die in the end or become fucing emos i could use the mainstream right now. and besides its not like i purposely try to fuck up your life anymore i just heard about some things and i had no idea once again. but what do you want me to do, assume the worst about you and your life? i know you are a successful person so i dont expect you to rott at Vouz or Ljellos all day. i know you are better then em and thats why i dont ask about little shit.
and if you hate so much lets fucking get this off our chests, i want you to hit me as hard as you can again. because last time you only broke my nose. see there is a reason you cant escape and be free like ya said. theres too much of your efforts in peoples lives so cant just leave. and if we have to take sides im taking yours not because i hate Mark with a raging passion. but because im all for being on the good side.
first of all my band didnt fuck up because choices alone. portland doesnt take indie rock or old school punk so with all the emo shit we werent getting the same sales even from colleges. so i made a choice wait it out or leave. i stayed they didnt and thats why they left not me. i hired a dude from Jamestown named Max R and a drummer from portland. it sucked starting again but i gave it a shot k?
another thing. i didnt even know Emily it was like 4 years ago Mol, i only knew you as a friend for about 3. im not this horny bastard, yeah i make mistakes but i lost the fucking love of my life because of my attempt to better myself in Portland, which failed. k?
So without Kristin i really dont give a shit except about my music and me. i cant stand how things turned out. i hear all these rumors. but i dont hear anything from you. we talk about stupid shit. i want to talk about the past. and the parts we missed. i want to stay together. who cared if we die in the end or become fucing emos i could use the mainstream right now. and besides its not like i purposely try to fuck up your life anymore i just heard about some things and i had no idea once again. but what do you want me to do, assume the worst about you and your life? i know you are a successful person so i dont expect you to rott at Vouz or Ljellos all day. i know you are better then em and thats why i dont ask about little shit.
and if you hate so much lets fucking get this off our chests, i want you to hit me as hard as you can again. because last time you only broke my nose. see there is a reason you cant escape and be free like ya said. theres too much of your efforts in peoples lives so cant just leave. and if we have to take sides im taking yours not because i hate Mark with a raging passion. but because im all for being on the good side.