i get sad when im tired
I don't like my job anymore. I thought I would be ok here for awhile, but this isn't the type of work I like. Yeah, sitting in front of a computer all day has it's perks, but I am burnt out. I want to use my head, and my hands. I like making things. I really prefer working in an environment where I can see progress. I wish I could work at the Historical Society. I liked working on the archival collections so much. I wouldn't really want to be in charge of everything, i just like doing the work. Those positions are voluntary though... and i have cloase to $80,000 in school loans to pay off.
I feel more broke than i did when i was unemployed. I cannot pay my school loans and I am BITTER about how useless my degrees are. I don't want to sit at this desk anymore. I can't travel anymore because I have to be here all the time for payroll and phone calls (we are all waiting for the million dollar call).
This is really lame, but i wish i had more time for poker. I miss playing at home. I don't really have a home right now... I stay at Sposet's. My stuff (for what it's worth) is at the 106th house that i loath. The smell of the basement hits me as soon as i open the door. It makes me sick... My room mates are really messy and I can't stand it. I am moving out slowly because now I have MY house that I can start filling up with crap. I just wanted to get more done before putting stuff in there.
I am unhappy RIGHT now, but generally I am in a much better mood.
I hung out with Brendan the last couple days. This resulted in many realizations. He is unhappy and bored. Also- he blocked me from Myspace and Facebook, so I didn't really get the internet. He apologized. Then he locked everyone out of the new house by accident.
I just want to go to sleep.
I wanted to go to the show at NTC tonight. Ho-ag and Pygmy Shrews. There are too many bands playing though.
I feel more broke than i did when i was unemployed. I cannot pay my school loans and I am BITTER about how useless my degrees are. I don't want to sit at this desk anymore. I can't travel anymore because I have to be here all the time for payroll and phone calls (we are all waiting for the million dollar call).
This is really lame, but i wish i had more time for poker. I miss playing at home. I don't really have a home right now... I stay at Sposet's. My stuff (for what it's worth) is at the 106th house that i loath. The smell of the basement hits me as soon as i open the door. It makes me sick... My room mates are really messy and I can't stand it. I am moving out slowly because now I have MY house that I can start filling up with crap. I just wanted to get more done before putting stuff in there.
I am unhappy RIGHT now, but generally I am in a much better mood.
I hung out with Brendan the last couple days. This resulted in many realizations. He is unhappy and bored. Also- he blocked me from Myspace and Facebook, so I didn't really get the internet. He apologized. Then he locked everyone out of the new house by accident.
I just want to go to sleep.
I wanted to go to the show at NTC tonight. Ho-ag and Pygmy Shrews. There are too many bands playing though.