(don't) let me fade out // taekai

[supremekoi]

Because they’re disintegrating in slow motion, and Jongin can’t look away.

Rating: NC-17.
Warning: Self-harm, implied disordered eating, drug mention.
Pairing: Taekai, Jongin-centric.
Length: ~8000.

Comments

[matchynishi]

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BUT THE END... IT SEEMED SOMEWHAT HOPEFUL........ IT DID.................DIDN'T IT?!?!?!?!?!??? CLUTCHING AT STRAWS HERE....WHY DID YOU HAVE TO HAVE THE QUESTION MARK AT THE END WHYYYYYY sobs

luhan was great here though ajkshfkjdhfkajsh he was here for such a small bit but kind of stole the scene, dies PROBABLY BECAUSE OF JONGIN BEING AN ANGSTY PISSBABY dies forevar

sehun n yixing were osm like always alsdkfjl and taemin. T_______T he's so determined to be okay!!! like!!! i'm ttly okay!!!! WHY CANT THE BOTH OF THEM UNBEND A LITTLE BIT Llksdjflakjlsdkaj oh taekai

[supremekoi]

it's hopeful if you want it to be hopeful???? i'm sorry it was based off the song and the song was very ambivalent so i was also very ambivalent. the question mark at the end is because the song lyrics end like that D: D: D:

lu han is my pet babb and so are sexing and you can tell i can't keep them out >___> but yes i wanted someone to call jongin out on his hoity toity pissbaby bullshit like 'who do you think you're saving kid you don't know shit' and jongin is like /wahhhh flail punch wall/

it was so hard keeping sexing out of this fic ;;;;;;; i cut so much of them out because they kept INFILTRATING ugh OTPs are so annoying

i promise (maybe??) that next time i will try to make taekai happy <3 <3 and yay for learning new words!

[matchynishi]

i want it to be hopeful. :|b

you know when you said it was hard keeping sexing out, for a moment i was wondering if you meant lay/sehun or like, just, you know, sex

i'm glad you decided to keep both in regardless

I WILL HOLD YOU TO HAPPY TAEKAI FIC OMG

[supremekoi]

i meant yixing/sehun haha, i am not fond of writing smut TT_____TT where do all the body parts go??

[matchynishi]

no, i got that after the first second of confusion lol. alskjdfa from my experience writing smut, it comes off really mechanical if you just worry about where things go, or write like that... it works a lot better when you focus on the characters and their reactions and how they play off each other... and their dialogue ofc! :D the actions are second in importance, lol. idk i think it makes things a lot hotter alksjdf.

i place so much importance on proper pornfic, dies