The End
Me and Brandi broke up. Before I go into the details I'd like to note that I am not usually one who writes about my emotions on live journal. In fact I think the number of posts where I really let my heart out are rather few. The cynical among us is surely wondering why I would make a post about this issue and make it public, rather then private. I feel that a public post is my only chance to vindicate the actions I've taken. Admittedly my live journal friends consists mainly of Brandi's family and friends (except Tin!, and perhaps a few old trent peeps who read but never comment) but nonetheless I have grown fond of Brandi's family and friends and, well, quite frankly I would be upset if they had no opportunity to see my side of the story. The question may arise why I would bother with such a step when the allegiance of Brandi's friend's and family is already certain. My response would be that I present this lengthy autobiography for the purpose of updating my live journal friends on what has happened an why, and also providing an account to Dawn and Ashley, who's opinion I grew to care about over the 3 years of our relationship. In addition, I'm a vindictive guy, and why I feel wronged I want the world to know and understand why I feel this way.
The blight on our relationship started over a year and a half ago, when Brandi first made out with Josh, a friend of hers who I actually thought was rather fun and cool. After that I trusted Brandi when she told me that she wouldn't fool around with josh again. So I didn't break up with her and we continued pretty much as we always had. I really wasn't too concerned about a drunken make-out, so I hardly sweat what happened.
As many of my Lj readers know, on June 13th Brandi actually slept with Josh. She told me right after it happened, and, while I was heartbroken at the indiscretion, I decided to stay with her to see if it could possibly work out.
It did work out. For a while. All Brandi had to do was admit what she did was wrong and stop hanging out with Josh. Sadly, this proved impossible for her and instead she would secretly go see Josh behind my back and lie to me about what was going on. This included a time (something I just learned of tonight, from him) when she invited him over to our home and had sex with him in our bed. All of this occurred while I was away and completely oblivious.
A few more months passed and I things where going well. Then came the night of October 10th, a birthday celebration for me and my friend David Reeb. On this night Brandi got so drunk that she ran away from the party and was picked up by the cops on her way home. The cops asked her where she lived and she gave them josh's address. She spent the next day sleeping with him.
After this night I was ready to break up with her, but she convinced me that she would finally end things with Josh. I realize I'm an idiot for believing this, but I did because I really wanted to believe.
Fast forward 5 days later and we reach tonight. Oh tonight. It was a celebration of her finally finishing a big exam of hers called a cumulative exam. Admittedly this celebration was tainted by what had happened 5 days before, but it was a celebration nonetheless. Things were going great until Josh arrived at the party. Suddenly Brandi was hanging out with him all night long and I got jealous. Sad eh? I fucking hate being the jealous one because it makes you look like a loser. Jealousy is what happens to people who like a person more then that person likes them. It's a shitty awful feeling. And I promised myself would never feel that way about anyone. But I let my guard down for Brandi and the sting of jealous tainted the last 6 months of our relationship.
Anyways, we were at the party and I was pissed at Josh and Brandi for the attention she was giving him. So I made it very awkward and told him that Brandi had told me about his erectile disfunction problems and his rather small, err, package (please facebook don't ban me). He responded by telling me about how they had done it in my home while I was away in Portland. Touche, Josh, your barb stings as much as you could have hoped. I am an vindictive person and I hope my barb stung as well.
After that Brandi started making out with Josh and it was pretty much over from there on out. This is why I broke up with the woman of my dreams. How quickly a dream can become a nightmare.
The blight on our relationship started over a year and a half ago, when Brandi first made out with Josh, a friend of hers who I actually thought was rather fun and cool. After that I trusted Brandi when she told me that she wouldn't fool around with josh again. So I didn't break up with her and we continued pretty much as we always had. I really wasn't too concerned about a drunken make-out, so I hardly sweat what happened.
As many of my Lj readers know, on June 13th Brandi actually slept with Josh. She told me right after it happened, and, while I was heartbroken at the indiscretion, I decided to stay with her to see if it could possibly work out.
It did work out. For a while. All Brandi had to do was admit what she did was wrong and stop hanging out with Josh. Sadly, this proved impossible for her and instead she would secretly go see Josh behind my back and lie to me about what was going on. This included a time (something I just learned of tonight, from him) when she invited him over to our home and had sex with him in our bed. All of this occurred while I was away and completely oblivious.
A few more months passed and I things where going well. Then came the night of October 10th, a birthday celebration for me and my friend David Reeb. On this night Brandi got so drunk that she ran away from the party and was picked up by the cops on her way home. The cops asked her where she lived and she gave them josh's address. She spent the next day sleeping with him.
After this night I was ready to break up with her, but she convinced me that she would finally end things with Josh. I realize I'm an idiot for believing this, but I did because I really wanted to believe.
Fast forward 5 days later and we reach tonight. Oh tonight. It was a celebration of her finally finishing a big exam of hers called a cumulative exam. Admittedly this celebration was tainted by what had happened 5 days before, but it was a celebration nonetheless. Things were going great until Josh arrived at the party. Suddenly Brandi was hanging out with him all night long and I got jealous. Sad eh? I fucking hate being the jealous one because it makes you look like a loser. Jealousy is what happens to people who like a person more then that person likes them. It's a shitty awful feeling. And I promised myself would never feel that way about anyone. But I let my guard down for Brandi and the sting of jealous tainted the last 6 months of our relationship.
Anyways, we were at the party and I was pissed at Josh and Brandi for the attention she was giving him. So I made it very awkward and told him that Brandi had told me about his erectile disfunction problems and his rather small, err, package (please facebook don't ban me). He responded by telling me about how they had done it in my home while I was away in Portland. Touche, Josh, your barb stings as much as you could have hoped. I am an vindictive person and I hope my barb stung as well.
After that Brandi started making out with Josh and it was pretty much over from there on out. This is why I broke up with the woman of my dreams. How quickly a dream can become a nightmare.