Who I am

[suppandi]

bangalore has been a drag recently, hardly anyone to go out with, and I'm not the the kind of person who just picks up the phone and calls people, although I should. for some reason I always think that im'm a burden of everyone, my friends, and my family,. but especially people who I kinda know well, but not too well, its very hard for me to cross the acquaintance line to rally into the friendship realm, I dunno why, maybe I 'm too catutios, i dont' like taking chances at all, and maybe thats the reason, 21 years of existence, and not one single significant other. lol. Maybe I should loosen up and take it for granted that If i can care about some people, its my right to at least demand a lil bit outta them , without feeling guilty. but whenever I want to even have asimple conversation with someone I don't know too well, my heart beats as fast and heavily as a running horses's shoes against the ground. I have to learn to be more confident and assertive.
but anyway I was really hapy yesterday, i will see my very good friends after years. i'm esctatic. darjelling and delhi will be a good change.