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why am i so bad at reading girl's minds, and taking cues. I often tend to steer towards the cautious side, and suffer later. isn;t it better to take risks, and maybe be happy. I haven't been able to enter a single relationship in my enite life, and I don't see why. I really dont have a reasonan or an excuse. it puts me into a quandry and I ask myself, Am I capable of really caring about someone, and the answer is yes, then why,some things are out of my league. it perplexes me, and sometimes it ven depresses me. but I keep convincing myself to move on, derive joy from other things, its all superficial. if i cant say the thigns in my heart, then why do i profess others to do the opposite, for istance, I was greatly impressed by my cuz, who finally proposed to this guy and is really happy about it, I wonder if I had a role to play in that, ihad a long chat with her, insisting about that she take some action some time very soon, anyway hopefully things get better soon.