deep
its fucking late but my mind won't leave this alone. are we supposed to be with one person? do we really have soul mates? how are we supposed to know? i have spent the last year of my life giving myself some solid ground of what i think about this. i have always been a lover. i have always wanted to be in love. a movie kind of love. the perfect kind of love where you really are soulmates and he knows when you have to pee and when you're craving toast.
i have been so cynical. college has given me the knowledge to be a feminist. college has given me reality and facts, and possibly too much of it. i was pretty stuck to the idea that monogomy is unhealthy, and we only believe in it because that's what we're used to; and fuck what we're used to, fuck the man! fuck the government! you know.. this is how i've been lately. but, i am a girl. i am in love with simple things, and i am in love with being in love. so sue me if the thought of marriage has been on my mind lately. so sue me if i have fallen completely in love and worry about my sanity. i feel so much for him, and when he tells me im the only girl he's ever wanted, or even thought about marrying.. i feel the same. i feel the same but i have this nagging, bitchy, struggling voice in the back of my head trying to come up with an argument against it. i am so much a person who follows their instincts, who loves to embrace life as it comes at me. so this is hard. this is really hard. i am up in the sky in love with him but when my feet on the ground come knocking at my door telling me that marriage is unrealistic and you shouldn't rely on someone so much and you shouldn't love someone more than yourself... i dont know what to do. i dont know who to believe.
if you read this, tell me what you think. i need some brainstorming.
i have been so cynical. college has given me the knowledge to be a feminist. college has given me reality and facts, and possibly too much of it. i was pretty stuck to the idea that monogomy is unhealthy, and we only believe in it because that's what we're used to; and fuck what we're used to, fuck the man! fuck the government! you know.. this is how i've been lately. but, i am a girl. i am in love with simple things, and i am in love with being in love. so sue me if the thought of marriage has been on my mind lately. so sue me if i have fallen completely in love and worry about my sanity. i feel so much for him, and when he tells me im the only girl he's ever wanted, or even thought about marrying.. i feel the same. i feel the same but i have this nagging, bitchy, struggling voice in the back of my head trying to come up with an argument against it. i am so much a person who follows their instincts, who loves to embrace life as it comes at me. so this is hard. this is really hard. i am up in the sky in love with him but when my feet on the ground come knocking at my door telling me that marriage is unrealistic and you shouldn't rely on someone so much and you shouldn't love someone more than yourself... i dont know what to do. i dont know who to believe.
if you read this, tell me what you think. i need some brainstorming.