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so i just got off the phone with megan, my gf, she's going back to texas, next year, not coming back to durham... and this really saddens me because despite the fact that we've only been dating 3 weeks i really like her. i care about her. i think in many ways i love her, although with me its hard to tell, since i seem to fall in and out of love so often. i want to try keeping a relationship, but honestly i don't really see any way it could work, short time long distance can work, but we're talking not seeing each other for at least a year. i'm of course going to stay her friend, and keep in touch through email, phone calls, im and all that. but not being able to see her face, tickle her tummy, hold her hand, run my fingers through her hair, i'm kind of a physical guy, i like touch, like i love to feel her in my arms, and its sad for me when i talk on the phone, not being able to brush those bangs of hers out of her eyes so i can look at those beatiful hazel eyes of hers. blah. i miss her so much right now and she's only gone for 4 days. i'm feeling really low, its like any time something really good happens in my life, it has to be taken away. Megan, if u read this, i love u, and i will always be there for u.