it's just another day...
for some reason it's really easy to run to my journal when things aren't good.
i don't know if this is how i vent.
or if this is how i let people know how i am feeling without having to talk about it.
this weekend was amazing with my family.
i miss them so much.
my sister graduated from westmont on saturday...
now she's out in the 'real world'
it really hit me saturday night that she's going to have her own life and family soon.
she's such a big part of my life...
and my mom and dad both hate their jobs.
i'm sure they will both quit before the end of the summer.
but for some reason my dad always keeps going because i think he thinks he needs to support his family.
i wish they were happy at work.
and i wish i could be at home to help them.
two weeks until garrett leaves.
it's sad that our friendship has already started to diminish.
it's incredible how much a person can mean to you and then within a few months they are hardly a part of your life anymore.
and worst of all...
i don't know who i am right now.
my actions make me constantly question myself.
and i don't have any answers.
i just continue to act the same.
i don't know how to change.
and maybe i'm not supposed to.
but i definately don't like the person i am right now.