Always Blessings, Never Losses
Tonight Jay's gone to a party and I am sittin here watchin TV and studying pharmacy stuff. I am very thankful that I decided to watch John Edward Cross Country, because a mother of a 4 year old boy that passed away said the words "Always Blessings, Never Losses." I've had a hell of a time at things lately, it seems like just as I am getting over one death the reaper comes for someone else. I've lost more family members than I care to count, lots of friends, and now the reaper is knockin on my uncles door. I have always had a difficult time with loss, but it seems the more I lose the more bitter I get. Hearing that mother say that tonight helped me in ways I never knew possible. Ever since I heard those words I have been thinkin of all the things I learned from those who have gone before me. Jay you know how bitter I have been, I just want to tell you thank you for always being here for me. I know you have seen me go thru a lot and I know I haven't always dealt with it in the best way. From today on I am going to do better, I am gonna look for the blessings in everything and not focus so much on the losses. Not just with death, I am gonna take this approach on lots of things in my life. "Always Blessings, Never Losses."