about last nite and 2day- 2nite
well me and phil got into a really big agrument the other nite and we split. well i wrote him an email lettin him know i felt really bad for wat i did. me and him r now tryin 2 cope w/ things and try 2 make them all better again. well im grounded til my mom says other wise. umm..... ne thing new im not allowed 2 go and c my guy friends. well that i could imagin y. but that phils choice and moms so i mean i cant say ne thing there its 2 against 1. i have no words and i think phil thinks im gonna do it again. and im not. i love him and dont wanna loose him. i wanna be w. him more then ever. last nite it was bad i wanted 2 drive the whole way 2 va last nite and not stop til i got there 2 make it up 2 him. its kinda hard not bein able 2 be w/ the 1 person u love the most. but i mean i guess i got over that in november it will be 2 years. i really wanna go there and c him. in a moth or so i have 2 go 2 the doctor and get a pregancy test. then i have 2 tell phil if i am or not. i hope im not and if i am i have 2 get it abborted i know thats not the best thing 2 do but i know i cant take care of a kid makin only $6 and hour i dont think so. but im gonna go and get me some sleep and i'll talk later bye all