Apr 16, 2003 15:41
Today was spent trying to get my head in order and calming myself down from the incredible highs that were experienced in the past few weeks. I was laying in bed yesterday just trying to remember who the hell I was, I feel like I've come so far and I'm trying desperately not to lose or forget the 13 year old version of myself. Which probably does more harm than good (living in the past ect.). As I was laying there all I could think was: "When is the other shoe going to drop? When does this mind-numbing-fantastic happiness suddenly come crashing down around me? Where do I have left to go from here?" Then I realized that this self doubt will do me no good and that worrying about things that you can't change is a waste of time. Try telling my brain/heart that.
In other news, a prom dress must be found this weekend. I'm hoping to find a 20's/30's/40's style to go with the fantastic t-strap 3 inch heels that were purchased just for the occasion. Wish me luck.