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Part of me really wants to write a long drawn out self analyzing entry about the last 6 years of my life and the other, decidedly more lazy part of me just wants to write about what ever comes to my head in the moment...
So, I guess their "together". I am so happy for them and only a little envious. I think that the best part about the whole thing is how natural it all seems, they went from friends to more than that in one step without a lot of drama and showing off. It's good to be around those sort of vibes, even if I'm not in the center of them.
Speaking of which, I've sort of come to realize that relationships aren't just something that happens. You don't meet someone and have a bond. It takes time and history. I think thats true about life, or at least mine. For such a long time (my whole life really) I've always thought that life was something that just kind of happened to you, you got this job or did well on a certain test or had a certain boyfriend or set of friends because of who you were. Those sort of things just fell into your lap. I think that realizing that you have to make you own decisions and have a plan and go after it rather than just waiting for it to come to you was the biggest lesson that I've learned this year...so far anyway...the year is still young. All this to say that I want to get some "history" with Mike. Maybe not him exactly, but he would be nice.
I used to say that my favorite part of the day was the middle of the night when everyone was asleep and the house was quiet. Now, my favorite part is the morning when I wake up, those first few minutes when your eyes flutter open and the sunlight is streaming through the window and everyone is quiet because they think you're asleep. All you really want in those first few minutes is to have someone next to you to share those quiet moments with, to smile at them and know that no matter what happens, this is going to be the best day of your life.
So, I guess their "together". I am so happy for them and only a little envious. I think that the best part about the whole thing is how natural it all seems, they went from friends to more than that in one step without a lot of drama and showing off. It's good to be around those sort of vibes, even if I'm not in the center of them.
Speaking of which, I've sort of come to realize that relationships aren't just something that happens. You don't meet someone and have a bond. It takes time and history. I think thats true about life, or at least mine. For such a long time (my whole life really) I've always thought that life was something that just kind of happened to you, you got this job or did well on a certain test or had a certain boyfriend or set of friends because of who you were. Those sort of things just fell into your lap. I think that realizing that you have to make you own decisions and have a plan and go after it rather than just waiting for it to come to you was the biggest lesson that I've learned this year...so far anyway...the year is still young. All this to say that I want to get some "history" with Mike. Maybe not him exactly, but he would be nice.
I used to say that my favorite part of the day was the middle of the night when everyone was asleep and the house was quiet. Now, my favorite part is the morning when I wake up, those first few minutes when your eyes flutter open and the sunlight is streaming through the window and everyone is quiet because they think you're asleep. All you really want in those first few minutes is to have someone next to you to share those quiet moments with, to smile at them and know that no matter what happens, this is going to be the best day of your life.