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I Suddenly got the urge to update my journal, and decided to embrace it as I rarely choose to write in this thing. So what's new?
On the mind: School is going alright. I was seemingly falling behind in my more academic type classes. i did a great deal of crunching on the last test and chapter quiz for math (and by crunching i mean peering onto another girls paper) and It has raised me up a notch. English is just dandy, no problems there. Interpersonal Comm. is starting to tick me off a bit (irony?), but the class itself is going alright. My other classes are musical theatre and dance - needless to say they're going just fine. im loving this excessive dancing, it's doing wonders for my bod. Im getting a little lazy though....darnnit, but nonetheless im lookin pretty good - which makes me FEEL good which is why I mentioned it. Not for vanities sake...
Anyway
On the Arts: Juggling two shows at once is killing me. Absolutely killing me. i rehearse Scandal Mon- Fri 7-10:30 pm, and I rehearse prince Brat on weekends, usually mid afternoon to the evening. It is SHIT. I mean I LOVE doing it but i dont get any rest. All the between time is spent at school or at work. Both are dire necessities that cannot be sacrificed. now theres the option of possibly sacrificing a show, but why? A GREAT comedy and a FUN musical. It's just alot fo work, but im paying my dues. Everyone has to pay dues right? Not only do i get the credits of working on Scandal at grossmont, but i get credits AND equity credit for working the musical at State. Sheer brilliance I think. not to mentionm the exposure! Working (again) with Barry Bosworth. People will turnout to see the show JUST because he directed. And State- working with Lisa Drummond and Ron Councell both who are prime influences on Starlight and moonlight theatres...>GOOOD deal. Stick with it I say...All things will pass...
On the Heart: Well well well...I broke up with Justin. Well it was a mutual thing really. I just didn't feel like i couldnt make him as happy as I once did, and the concurrent thoughts of his grief because of my lackidazical ways floored me. I felt bad. It was emotional. I miss him greatly. Do I regret it? No. the pain has receded and Im doing ok. I figure it this way: if yo ulove something let it go, if it returns it was meant to be, if not...Well I still made a friend in the whole shebang. I don't want to say I want to be with him again, becaus eim not sure if thats what I really want, but god only knows ho wmuch i find myself missing him at times. let time tell where this one shall go. i shant hope or negate, only wait and see...
Furthermore...I havent much else to say. Im aa busy little fuck. Wish i had time for this and time for thta, but like i said my dues are being paid. I have a GREAT vacation to look forward to, with some surprises in store, im sure. Mom wants me to go to seattle, but my doubts are high, as i loathe the place anyway. Im content. Things could be better, but i am content. Im luckily alive. Thought im carless...but Im good. Im ok. Things are ok. I hope my repeating this doesnt share a jinx of misfortune, but i need the reassurance, Im ok.......
-Aarbear signing off.
On the mind: School is going alright. I was seemingly falling behind in my more academic type classes. i did a great deal of crunching on the last test and chapter quiz for math (and by crunching i mean peering onto another girls paper) and It has raised me up a notch. English is just dandy, no problems there. Interpersonal Comm. is starting to tick me off a bit (irony?), but the class itself is going alright. My other classes are musical theatre and dance - needless to say they're going just fine. im loving this excessive dancing, it's doing wonders for my bod. Im getting a little lazy though....darnnit, but nonetheless im lookin pretty good - which makes me FEEL good which is why I mentioned it. Not for vanities sake...
Anyway
On the Arts: Juggling two shows at once is killing me. Absolutely killing me. i rehearse Scandal Mon- Fri 7-10:30 pm, and I rehearse prince Brat on weekends, usually mid afternoon to the evening. It is SHIT. I mean I LOVE doing it but i dont get any rest. All the between time is spent at school or at work. Both are dire necessities that cannot be sacrificed. now theres the option of possibly sacrificing a show, but why? A GREAT comedy and a FUN musical. It's just alot fo work, but im paying my dues. Everyone has to pay dues right? Not only do i get the credits of working on Scandal at grossmont, but i get credits AND equity credit for working the musical at State. Sheer brilliance I think. not to mentionm the exposure! Working (again) with Barry Bosworth. People will turnout to see the show JUST because he directed. And State- working with Lisa Drummond and Ron Councell both who are prime influences on Starlight and moonlight theatres...>GOOOD deal. Stick with it I say...All things will pass...
On the Heart: Well well well...I broke up with Justin. Well it was a mutual thing really. I just didn't feel like i couldnt make him as happy as I once did, and the concurrent thoughts of his grief because of my lackidazical ways floored me. I felt bad. It was emotional. I miss him greatly. Do I regret it? No. the pain has receded and Im doing ok. I figure it this way: if yo ulove something let it go, if it returns it was meant to be, if not...Well I still made a friend in the whole shebang. I don't want to say I want to be with him again, becaus eim not sure if thats what I really want, but god only knows ho wmuch i find myself missing him at times. let time tell where this one shall go. i shant hope or negate, only wait and see...
Furthermore...I havent much else to say. Im aa busy little fuck. Wish i had time for this and time for thta, but like i said my dues are being paid. I have a GREAT vacation to look forward to, with some surprises in store, im sure. Mom wants me to go to seattle, but my doubts are high, as i loathe the place anyway. Im content. Things could be better, but i am content. Im luckily alive. Thought im carless...but Im good. Im ok. Things are ok. I hope my repeating this doesnt share a jinx of misfortune, but i need the reassurance, Im ok.......
-Aarbear signing off.