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wow ... definitely haven't written in this in a long time ...
so much has happened in the last couple months ... so many things have changed, but overall i'm happy (which i guess means everything has been pretty good)
school is ok ... i am starting to get really really really sick of the drama however ... my classes aren't bad (although mr. fayad did tell me i was a screw-up) ... its just that these stupid issues that won't mean anything in 10 years (heck one year, even 6 months) keep coming up ... i really don't care, and people don't realize that ... i cannot wait for midterms to be over so i can call it quits ... leaning toward georgetown, and i'm really excited to go visit in april ... i really hope keara gets in tho ... i'm going to be so out of the loop with harriet and keara at villanova!
the fabulous life of paris hilton is on the tv ... i really want to be a socialite when i grow up! ... it's such a stupid aspiration, but that life seems so mystified ... apparently i look like nicky hilton (not really but so i've been told) so i guess i'm on my way haha ... i would love to live that life just for a couple weeks but it is so artificial and fake it is not even funny! ... no wonder america has such a bad reputation - if i was a foreigner looking at american tabloid pictures of the hilton sisters would make me think poorly of the american populus as well ...
on that subject, that has probably been the BIGGEST thing pissing me off ... is it just me or does EVERY SINGLE GIRL at RBC talk about how much money they have? ... i cannot believe them sometimes ... i just want them to shut up ... i'm hoping it's different at college, but i'm pretty sure it won't be ... georgetown is basically the same group of kids ... i don't care if you have (or don't have) money ... that to me is ephemeral ... but to speak about it in front of other people is so classless ... to speak of how expensive the pocketbook you got for christmas was while hundreds of thousands of people are being found dead because of the tsunami is absolutely absurd ... i can't believe sometimes what a sheltered world i live in, and how most of the kids i go to school with cannot get past it ... what a sad state of affairs the american youth populus is in ... to me, the object of having money is to help others ... and as far as i'm concerned, not ONE person should know how much you have ... they should be stunned if they find out ... i'm sorry, but 16 and 17 year old chidren with $40 and $50 thousand dollar cars is completely absurd ... more than 1/2 of these kids are going to have a rude awakening when they reach the "real world" ... not everyone lives like princesses ladies and gentlemen ...
anyway ... i'm ready to leave high school ... sick of the drama ... and i really want to have the option of surrounding myself with the people i like and can choose ... i seriously think that there are maybe 6-10 people that i will actually keep in touch with after high school ... i'm really happy that i have such great friends!
time to go off to bed, so i can get up and study calculus ... GROAN ... fayad was mad at us because we talk so much, so we have a very short review for what is looking like a VERY hard test ... o well ... i'm quitting anyway haha ... tata!
love - steph