Bizarre
i was on myspace today and i came across an old friend from third and fourth grade. We were in my grandma's class together at the Christian school we went to. and...i found out she's gay. i just thought that was crazy...but cool.
i've become more accepting of myself.
not letting others have such a huge influence over me anymore.
do parents realize how much pressure they put on their kids?
sometimes they add stress to an already stressful situation.
i sit here...already self critical.
trying to figure everything out on my own.
i had a panic attack last night because my mom was disappointed with a situation
that i'm working on.
On my own.
No help.
i work 7 days a week..regardless of how i feel..so i can barely make it.
i'm so exhausted.
my body aches.
As stable and normalized as i feel with their presents in my life...
i get a lot more stressed out...
i try to impress them with all that i can
because i can't give them the life they wanted with me.
i'm done impressing.
this is me.
and there's so much more to me
more that i haven't even discovered, yet.
i resign.
i'm not perfect.
i've become more accepting of myself.
not letting others have such a huge influence over me anymore.
do parents realize how much pressure they put on their kids?
sometimes they add stress to an already stressful situation.
i sit here...already self critical.
trying to figure everything out on my own.
i had a panic attack last night because my mom was disappointed with a situation
that i'm working on.
On my own.
No help.
i work 7 days a week..regardless of how i feel..so i can barely make it.
i'm so exhausted.
my body aches.
As stable and normalized as i feel with their presents in my life...
i get a lot more stressed out...
i try to impress them with all that i can
because i can't give them the life they wanted with me.
i'm done impressing.
this is me.
and there's so much more to me
more that i haven't even discovered, yet.
i resign.
i'm not perfect.