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It kills me, now that I've realized what mike said about him was true. I feel dumb for being so dedicated to something so stupid, and superficial.
so this is how it went.... i bring this up because isaiah called me earlier and it drove me insane. I can't believe he would still call after all this...
This is a conversation that happened a while back when...
Mike:
"Hey I understand your problem with this ISISAH guy, You were at Isisah's friends house, and he wasn't mad. Thats cool, anyways back to the subject, you shouldn't feel like shit it isn't your fault. Well if he dosen't trust you then you might want to go about your business. Its good that you have been faithfull to this guy OBVIOUSLY.... he dosent realize that.. you must feel something for this guy, if this whole situation isnt like you...right? Well they say he cares, but does he really? Does he show it? If so it shouldn't be off and on you can't love one minute and not love the next...Am i right or wrong??? hey,if it seems as though he's going to waste your time then you know what has to be done, I'm not saying dump him off the bat, but you get me but if HE'S NOT GOING TO STEP UP AND BE A MAN ABOUT THIS WHOLE RELATIONSHIP THEN HE DOSEN'T REALLY DESERVE YOU..... does this ring a bell.You are right though, he needs to man up. Maybe he's imature.... maybe he can't handle a women like yourself, if not him, there is definitely a guy that could or definitely would want to SWEEP YOU OFF YOUR FEET... your very pretty so im sure of it. Hey you never know maybe one of your boyfriends likes you or would get close if he could....like maybe this mike guywho is he?? sorry just asking... ummm... is he cute???? how do you know him? or maybe theres somone else.. do u talk to this mike guy?? you never know one of isiah's friends could be the one who would and could sweep you off your feet maybe his friends could prove to be more substantial... who knows maybe you could end up finding more, you know. I'm not saying cheat of course not. but maybe talk to these other guys for example mike...(i guess) you never know maybe he could uphold the job....u think?? maybe youll find that one of those guys has more to offer than isisah does??
hey does this mike guy or any other of isisahs friends like you?? well what ever happens post it i wanna know lol lol....hope the ?'s arent much!!!"
Me-
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"-Maybe it's immaturity, maybe it's insecure... whatever it is, he's absorbed in it, and it's rubbing off on me. I love him and I've been very optimistic, but I can't help but feel less confident about his feelings when he acts the way he did at mikes. We've had our talks and things change but they always go back to the way things were from the start. we're going to continue to have these talks until things change for real... don't get me wrong, I didn't get into this relationship to change him because I love him for who he is, but to maybe help him want to better himself, so we can better the relationship. And if things don't get better, then I'll do what I know I have to do, but till' then I'm going to keep trying, and dedicate myself 100%... all or nothing right?
-In my previous relationship, all my ex's friends hit on me and in a way, fucked him over by trying to do really shady things, just to get with me.I cannot surround myself with people like that, I don't believe people like that deserve my friendship, and if I were to ever do that, then I'd be a hypocrite and a lousy person for hurting someone I love. I can't get with any of isaiahs friends, it would be wrong and it would hurt him... I never want to do that. I mean maybe isaiahs friend is a great guy, maybe he could be substantial, but I'm with isaiah, and because of that simple fact, we will never find out.
- As far as other guys go... I'm avoiding the whole field. I'm not trying to test out the atlantic ocean, I have my fish... lol does that make sense? there were a lot of guys trying to get with me, when I got with isaiah.. there was justin, mike (not the same mike), kevin(not my cousin), luis, arthur, etc. I can't even remember, but they were all very sweet... good, well off, nice boys who would've given the world to me. but I chose isaiah... there's something about him... I feel like the 3-4 months I've known him have been forever, because we have so much in common, and we connect in so many ways... it's like I've known him my whole life. I haven't felt that way with anyone in a really long time."
so this is how it went.... i bring this up because isaiah called me earlier and it drove me insane. I can't believe he would still call after all this...
This is a conversation that happened a while back when...
Mike:
"Hey I understand your problem with this ISISAH guy, You were at Isisah's friends house, and he wasn't mad. Thats cool, anyways back to the subject, you shouldn't feel like shit it isn't your fault. Well if he dosen't trust you then you might want to go about your business. Its good that you have been faithfull to this guy OBVIOUSLY.... he dosent realize that.. you must feel something for this guy, if this whole situation isnt like you...right? Well they say he cares, but does he really? Does he show it? If so it shouldn't be off and on you can't love one minute and not love the next...Am i right or wrong??? hey,if it seems as though he's going to waste your time then you know what has to be done, I'm not saying dump him off the bat, but you get me but if HE'S NOT GOING TO STEP UP AND BE A MAN ABOUT THIS WHOLE RELATIONSHIP THEN HE DOSEN'T REALLY DESERVE YOU..... does this ring a bell.You are right though, he needs to man up. Maybe he's imature.... maybe he can't handle a women like yourself, if not him, there is definitely a guy that could or definitely would want to SWEEP YOU OFF YOUR FEET... your very pretty so im sure of it. Hey you never know maybe one of your boyfriends likes you or would get close if he could....like maybe this mike guywho is he?? sorry just asking... ummm... is he cute???? how do you know him? or maybe theres somone else.. do u talk to this mike guy?? you never know one of isiah's friends could be the one who would and could sweep you off your feet maybe his friends could prove to be more substantial... who knows maybe you could end up finding more, you know. I'm not saying cheat of course not. but maybe talk to these other guys for example mike...(i guess) you never know maybe he could uphold the job....u think?? maybe youll find that one of those guys has more to offer than isisah does??
hey does this mike guy or any other of isisahs friends like you?? well what ever happens post it i wanna know lol lol....hope the ?'s arent much!!!"
Me-
(Reply to this)
"-Maybe it's immaturity, maybe it's insecure... whatever it is, he's absorbed in it, and it's rubbing off on me. I love him and I've been very optimistic, but I can't help but feel less confident about his feelings when he acts the way he did at mikes. We've had our talks and things change but they always go back to the way things were from the start. we're going to continue to have these talks until things change for real... don't get me wrong, I didn't get into this relationship to change him because I love him for who he is, but to maybe help him want to better himself, so we can better the relationship. And if things don't get better, then I'll do what I know I have to do, but till' then I'm going to keep trying, and dedicate myself 100%... all or nothing right?
-In my previous relationship, all my ex's friends hit on me and in a way, fucked him over by trying to do really shady things, just to get with me.I cannot surround myself with people like that, I don't believe people like that deserve my friendship, and if I were to ever do that, then I'd be a hypocrite and a lousy person for hurting someone I love. I can't get with any of isaiahs friends, it would be wrong and it would hurt him... I never want to do that. I mean maybe isaiahs friend is a great guy, maybe he could be substantial, but I'm with isaiah, and because of that simple fact, we will never find out.
- As far as other guys go... I'm avoiding the whole field. I'm not trying to test out the atlantic ocean, I have my fish... lol does that make sense? there were a lot of guys trying to get with me, when I got with isaiah.. there was justin, mike (not the same mike), kevin(not my cousin), luis, arthur, etc. I can't even remember, but they were all very sweet... good, well off, nice boys who would've given the world to me. but I chose isaiah... there's something about him... I feel like the 3-4 months I've known him have been forever, because we have so much in common, and we connect in so many ways... it's like I've known him my whole life. I haven't felt that way with anyone in a really long time."