(no subject)
we found him. apparently someone feels that they've done nothing wrong. If standing someone up, having them worry, and track you down is nothing wrong... he could've called, but didn't. then ended up saying that I bitch too much and didn't understand why i was crying. I think I need to spend some time w/o him and find artificial comfort. What would you do if this happened to you? can you leave your significant other and never look back regretting? Am I unlucky in love or do I just like to rebel? I'm acting like my mother.... I hate that.
22nd of may...
it's 8:40 am I barely slept last night. I still don't know where love went to... I'm worried, yet frustrated.
21st...
sometimes I get so sick of waiting I want to throw up. I'd rather be dead then sit around waiting for love to arrive 4 hours late. It's cruel and I hate the feeling, just now, I had to get out and take a 1/2 mile walk to the paradise to cool off, then I jogged back. Why can't this be a little easier on me. I can't always be the one waiting and playing the fool... how much can I put up with till I give up? How do I stay so strong, yet come off as so weak? If I could just trade spots with him one day I would show him how cruel it is to make someone wait for love... I can't even go get it. Then again I can never be that cruel. hurting myself is like a drug sometimes... my excuse "I got bored of waiting"
22nd of may...
it's 8:40 am I barely slept last night. I still don't know where love went to... I'm worried, yet frustrated.
21st...
sometimes I get so sick of waiting I want to throw up. I'd rather be dead then sit around waiting for love to arrive 4 hours late. It's cruel and I hate the feeling, just now, I had to get out and take a 1/2 mile walk to the paradise to cool off, then I jogged back. Why can't this be a little easier on me. I can't always be the one waiting and playing the fool... how much can I put up with till I give up? How do I stay so strong, yet come off as so weak? If I could just trade spots with him one day I would show him how cruel it is to make someone wait for love... I can't even go get it. Then again I can never be that cruel. hurting myself is like a drug sometimes... my excuse "I got bored of waiting"