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So I am freaking out....i mean really...i dunno whether to laugh or cry. Alice is in 3 days and I still don't have a costume. It's not that we don't have one, but we have to choose from two. What sucks is that there's one that i really want and i've put a lot of money and effort into, but it still doesn't have all the pieces and fitz doesn't want to make color changes so far into the show. He said that the blue one is all put together and ready and we still haven't seen the white one in full. I have to have all the pieces by tomorrow, but i don't have them and i won't until wednesday. I really don't mind either way i guess, but the white one was just such a good idea. I'm just gonna have to bite my lip and wear the blue one i guess even tho...it's not near as cool as the white one is in theory. POO!
I'm so scared that this isn't gonna work out....everything just feels so unprepared and sloppy. I mean half the time i feel like i have to yell back and tell the rest of the chorus to help take things off stage. It makes me feel like a jerk, but really i have to be on stage the whole time...i never get a break and i just think everyone else can at least pay enough attention to come and move the set and get things when they're supposed to...(and please know that i'm not talking about everyone, most of the cast is doing a great, great job...and i feel like i'm letting everyone else down because i'm not always up to my best).....but it's just really frustrating.
I just really really don't want to have put so much time and effort practicing and worring about this show to have it turn out to be a mess. I've never done a fitz play before this year so i don't know if they're normally like this, so maybe it'll come together like they always do. I sure hope so at any rate.
I'm so scared that this isn't gonna work out....everything just feels so unprepared and sloppy. I mean half the time i feel like i have to yell back and tell the rest of the chorus to help take things off stage. It makes me feel like a jerk, but really i have to be on stage the whole time...i never get a break and i just think everyone else can at least pay enough attention to come and move the set and get things when they're supposed to...(and please know that i'm not talking about everyone, most of the cast is doing a great, great job...and i feel like i'm letting everyone else down because i'm not always up to my best).....but it's just really frustrating.
I just really really don't want to have put so much time and effort practicing and worring about this show to have it turn out to be a mess. I've never done a fitz play before this year so i don't know if they're normally like this, so maybe it'll come together like they always do. I sure hope so at any rate.