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Is there something wrong with me? Am i such a horrible person that no one wants to be around me? Am i annoying? Am i no fun to be around? What? I feel so left out all of the time. All of my friends are out at the movies and at the game and caroling. No one even bothered to invite me. This always happens. Why am i such an outcast? I feel like i can't do or say anything right. I hate being the boring dumb blonde.
Every one of my friends is creative and good at something, and they all have each other to lean on. What am i good at, and who do i have? I feel like i'm not good enough for anyone or anything.
Even matt, it's so hard sometimes, cuz i don't feel like i even deserve to be with him. He's such a good/honost person, and he's smart and creative and he has so many friends he can't even keep track of 'em all. He can walk down the street and have everyone he sees say hi. He's confident and has advise for everything.
I never know what to say. I'm horrible at school. I feel like people just talk to me because i'm there. I'm ditsy. I'm clummsy. I'm boring. I have no idea what i'm gonna do after high school. I don't even know if i'll make it to a decent college.
I'm so lonely and scared.
Sorry this is so hard to understand..i guess i'm just feeling a lot of stuff all at once and it all just kind of came out as a big mess.
Every one of my friends is creative and good at something, and they all have each other to lean on. What am i good at, and who do i have? I feel like i'm not good enough for anyone or anything.
Even matt, it's so hard sometimes, cuz i don't feel like i even deserve to be with him. He's such a good/honost person, and he's smart and creative and he has so many friends he can't even keep track of 'em all. He can walk down the street and have everyone he sees say hi. He's confident and has advise for everything.
I never know what to say. I'm horrible at school. I feel like people just talk to me because i'm there. I'm ditsy. I'm clummsy. I'm boring. I have no idea what i'm gonna do after high school. I don't even know if i'll make it to a decent college.
I'm so lonely and scared.
Sorry this is so hard to understand..i guess i'm just feeling a lot of stuff all at once and it all just kind of came out as a big mess.