fuck me 8 ways from tuesday
I can’t believe she did this to me and then she wouldn’t even tell me about it fuck her. Fuck everything about her. my best friend my ass; she says she loves me bull shit she would sacrifice anything for her own happiness that selfisish bitch I cant believe her and the fact that I had to read it in her fucking myspace she couldn’t even call and tell me what a selfish cunt! this is why I don’t have friends because every time I let my guard down just a little bit to let some one in they do this the first time she fucked me over I got over it and I was like ok you lost trust but I mean im not gonna like hate you and now this!! Did she think I wasn’t gonna fucking find out!!! That slimy butt head! Jeez! You know..... People told me she was to juvenile for me ands she would gossip. I dint listen I never listen why do I always have so much drama? The only reason im at Avalon this year is cuz people told me not to run away from my problems... so I stayed only to find new ones. I was happy I was so happy this week even though things dint go my way ( some one out there know what I mean) but I was still happy and no I feel like its gone! Im so codependent I always relay on other people for happiness and I can never find it in my self I don’t under stand that: probly why im in therapy, but that beside the point! the point is people even her own brother told me that she would hurt me that I was to old for her even if it is a year and the sad thing is I ended up getting hurt!!!!! This is why I don’t have relationships cuz high schools kids (including myself) mone and bitch too much for her own good and every thing be ruined and people get hurt! God fuck you all every one who told me they loved me they would always be there for me because if you don’t mean it don’t say it I can only brake so many times! I want real friends ie: Robert gianna I want a real boy friend a want no more bull shit... I just want my life back!