stressed
cars suck. well, our car sucks. damn being up north! all that stinkin rust on the underside of our car, and that rustproof protection stuff can only last so long. it seems like everything is just going wrong lately and i'm to the point where i want to give up, but i cant! i just can't. i have to keep going, so, yeah. it's like when i think everything is going good. it just stops, and turns wrong. and it has. this car has given me so many probs since he's been in korea. it sucks. i need to find another job, a job where i know i can make more than i'm making now. somewhere that'll train me well, because a lot of these people suck at training... i just need a lot more than i'm getting now, not because i'm money hungry, but because i want to get everything that's wrong with that car taken care of, pay bills, and than get another car. i just, my body can't take this. i'm just so stressed out. it's like i'm doomed or something. blah. so, i have to see what the schedule is for next week and than, well, i need to figure out this whole second job deal, heck, maybe third. i just want all this taken care of. i don't care if i get four hours of sleep and i'm running on E. yeah he makes enough money to get us by every month, but gees korea is expensive, and the government and their lovely pay system is never correct. they pay you too much one month and take it all away the next to balance it out. so i don't really trust his pay every 1st and 15th. blah. blah blah blah. that's all i have to say. and, i'm to the point where i think i may just go running and just try to de-stress. me, run, wow. could my life get any worse right now? *sigh* on a side note, my sister told me i was pretty today, haha. i don't know if she was playing, but blah she's my sister so i don't take that too serious. and, well, my best friend got me thinking about a lot of other things too. she hates the husband by the way, long story, but she hates him. *sigh* can't we all just get along?