confusion in my already lil mind.
i really dont wanna make this decision i want him to be my friend and us to be cool but im not gunna look like i just got dissed by *him* and go through this emotional crap. I no whoever is reading this is probably thinkin that this is a easy choice to make bc derr u take sumones friendship over ur ego..i no i no...but its way more complicated then that. it seems to get really complicated when u have the biggest crush on sumone then they find sumone else and u already dont like them it kinda blows. i feel like i totally got slapped in the face with this hole thing i wish that she would just piss of so it would be back to the norm! The more we talk about this the more it gets confusing in my head and its kinda left to me to decide the future of *us* me and him as ((friends)) as he LOVES to point out every time...its like im not stupid i get the picture ive been gettin it. i just need to listen to my heart and then ill no whether i really want this in my life...but with this comes heart ache, tears, and just feelin like wtf is rong with me.....so im in quite the dilema...i want him soo bad hes GREAT and everything but do i want this that comes along with it?