(no subject)
It's been one of those weekends where all these things are hurled into your face and you have to face this reality which you didn't even know existed. I live in this imaginary, perfect world. I assume the best...I avoid the worst. When faced with the worst, I cry...I cry my eyes out like a little baby. Oh, boohoo, he's not perfect. Oh no...she's not flawless. People screw up. I place people on pedestals and then I freak out when they don't live up to the perfect lives I expect of them.
Why am I losing sleep over this? (cause I literally am) It happens...it always will. I'm going to be let down and disappointed...and I'm going to let down others too.
I just want to experience things together...I feel so left out. You have all this stuff...and I, I just have you. And I want you to just have me.
(I realize that won't make sense to most readers)
Enough...I have to make myself sleep.
Why am I losing sleep over this? (cause I literally am) It happens...it always will. I'm going to be let down and disappointed...and I'm going to let down others too.
I just want to experience things together...I feel so left out. You have all this stuff...and I, I just have you. And I want you to just have me.
(I realize that won't make sense to most readers)
Enough...I have to make myself sleep.