uncomfortable
i really don't feel comfortable coming home right now. the only thing that made me come back tonight was my adorable puppy, whom i didn't want to be alone all night. i really wish i could just take him with me places and he wouldn't poop on floors... ahhh that would be great. but anyways, back to the weirdess. long story short... we've all done some bad and fucked up things. i mean i for one can say that i am not an innocent man by any means, but i do try to keep a small amount of morals in my back pocket for such an occassion. for example, i don't steal. i've had stuff stolen from me and know it sucks... therefore i don't steal, case closed. i also don't cheat. well in all honesty i've only had one actual girlfriend but even when i'm casualy dating a girl it's very 'one at a time.' as you can see from the example i would expect the same. apparently some people both geographically and mentally close to me do not feel the same way. this is why it is weird to be at my house at the moment. i don't want to answer the door ever again. i don't want to drive past their house. i don't want to take the trash out and see them checking the mail. this is nothing that i've done, how do i feel like crap as a result. i hate this sort of drama. this is not my element at all. in fact i hate it.
also. i've been dealing with the same girl more or less for the past couple of friggin months on and off. it is not fun. in fact she's incredibly frustrating, annoying, and makes me want to curl up into a little ball. she never calls back... and when i say never i really do me never. she dissapears. and worst of all.... just when i get her out of my head and there's a sign of hope guess when my phone rings? and guess who answers and jumps at the chance to hang out? that's right... me. the sucker! arggh. worst part is this always happens, we hang out and it's incredibly fun and all that jive and i get that little feeling in my stomach but then randomly gone. nowhere to be found or heard from until i finally decide to just move on... then bam1!!!!! it sucks. i hate it. i want it to stop. i want me to stop. friggin girls man.
i'm done ranting.
goodnight.
also. i've been dealing with the same girl more or less for the past couple of friggin months on and off. it is not fun. in fact she's incredibly frustrating, annoying, and makes me want to curl up into a little ball. she never calls back... and when i say never i really do me never. she dissapears. and worst of all.... just when i get her out of my head and there's a sign of hope guess when my phone rings? and guess who answers and jumps at the chance to hang out? that's right... me. the sucker! arggh. worst part is this always happens, we hang out and it's incredibly fun and all that jive and i get that little feeling in my stomach but then randomly gone. nowhere to be found or heard from until i finally decide to just move on... then bam1!!!!! it sucks. i hate it. i want it to stop. i want me to stop. friggin girls man.
i'm done ranting.
goodnight.