Frustrations and flirtations
Been sick for so many days now... this whole TMJ thing is a helluva lot worse than I ever imagined. In fact, I must say that it down right fuckin' sucks! Luckily I know my body and this is probably the worst it will ever get. After this I'll know the warning signs and be able to prevent it. I have to wonder though, which of the many possible contributors is the primary agent of the demise of my jaw? Is it the stress induced grinding of teeth? Is it the jaw wrenching Sunday suck offs? Is it the overly heavy backpack which pulls my shoulder, neck, and jaw out of alignment? Is it the simple clenching that I ALWAYS do any time I'm concentrating on something (which is about 75% of my conscious day)? What a fuckin' pain in the ass. Do you know how lame I feel painting or reading philosophy with my mouth hanging wide open? Bah!
On the lighter side... this is yet another injury reminding me to take it a bit easier in life. I'm always so concerned that other people might look at me and think that I'm a slacker just because I smoke a lot of pot or don't learn things quite as fast as others. Truth is, I can't sit still. And although I've never been the fastest (at ANYTHING!), once I get there I'm spot on. I always wonder, are people judging me or is it just that voice in my head? It's probably just the voice in my head, but since I have no real proof of that I'll keep assuming that I'm behind in the race. Even if it causes me personal injury it does keep me in the game.
On the lighter side... this is yet another injury reminding me to take it a bit easier in life. I'm always so concerned that other people might look at me and think that I'm a slacker just because I smoke a lot of pot or don't learn things quite as fast as others. Truth is, I can't sit still. And although I've never been the fastest (at ANYTHING!), once I get there I'm spot on. I always wonder, are people judging me or is it just that voice in my head? It's probably just the voice in my head, but since I have no real proof of that I'll keep assuming that I'm behind in the race. Even if it causes me personal injury it does keep me in the game.