Jan 02, 2005 01:43
Unbelievable.
This past month has been by far the best that I remember, no comparison. I am surrounded by some of the most refreshing open-minded people. I love the idea that I can trust my friends. I love that we can do the same thing all the time and always have an amazing night. I love how we talk to each other and get along. Last night was virtually perfect.
What an amazing new year this could potentially be. I don't want to shake this feeling. I wish I could put things in perspective as they are at this moment. I wish I could communicate better and interpret what people say objectively. I wish I could spare forgiveness in a timely manner when necessary and take heed when it's not. I've learned so much this year. If I take away nothing more than what I've learned, then so be it. I've learned a lot, but I've grown up more. It's a strange feeling.
So much has happened. Good and bad, of course, but for once I find that the good outweighs the bad. It's a nice feeling. It's even better to not know where I'm going, while remaining confident that it will be the right direction.
I can't put into words even how much it means to know that people care hard enough to try. Thank you Sean, no matter what happens.
There is so much I want to do differently this year. I haven't felt this way in quite some time. I'm willing to accept my faults and change them if at all possible. I hope my ranting is completely fruitless, maybe this time my big epiphany will stick. I'm keeping my fingers crossed
I'm just ready for a fresh start so I can do everything better this time.
Thanks to anyone who really cared.