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sunday is coming to an end and tomorrow will start a brand new week. as sad as i am about having school tomorrow i am, however, glad that i have something to do rather than sit here in my room and watch tv all day. it will also keep my mind off of missing home and friends. i didn't have a very good day. riding my bike to jenson this morning i realized that i was probably the saddest i've been in a long time. last friday i looked forward to having the weekend to relax and have time to myself, but really the entire weekend i have felt left out and lonely. i know this isn't how i want to spend each of my weekends. my cause of sadness wasn't also that i felt lonely, but i realized how much i really want to finish up school and start a career. i'm so tired of people running my life with assigning chapters to read out of dry, boring books and assigning papers taht are a waste of my time. i want my own band, my own bandroom, my own kids. i want my own house with a living room and refridgerator where i can put my OWN food and be able to find a place to put my milk on the shelf. grrrr!! i'm so tired of sharing bathrooms and showers, kitchens, forks, spoons, glasses, putting other people's dishes away (unless you are married to me, of course!) i know those of you out there that have graduated are thinking, "jessica, you are almost there. your time will come. the year goes by fast." grrr! like the army says, "hurry up and wait!" trust me, that doesn't fly over well with me. ha!
g'night!
g'night!