are some friendships worth salvaging?

[superpohgs]

if you were caught in a predicament where your whole friendship with someone was based on a big scheme would you talk it out with them? or would you rather just leave it alone?

let me elaborate...

i was involved in a scheme where i was the pawn. to be used as leverage to get back at someone. and i only discovered this recently. so now i'm stuck with this dilemma. was my friend actually just using me to get back at some guy he doesn't like because he knows that the person he's trying to get back at really cares about me? i know, i know it's kind of confusing, it's like a big circle of people screwing each other but not in a good way. i thought that this guy was my friend. i shared my personal life with him through our friendship, i shared my home, even my family. i even went to as far as the bay just to visit, to unwind. i've talked to him about my personal secrets, my demons, and my past. i poured my heart out, thinking that he really cared about me...he made me believe him. stupid me.

i hope that i'm wrong and i wasn't just a pawn. but it's kind of hard to get the thoughts out of my head when it's bugging me so much. i don't know whether to speak out, or just stop and stay silent. i guess this'll be put on hold for a while.