a box full of paradox
i guess everyone's posting so.. here i go.
umm i feel like a mess. i hate college, but i hate high school more. i hate ojai. i hate my hair. i hate my family more often than not. i'm kind of hating life. i thought spring break would be like this rejuvenating and relaxing experience, but it wasn't and it's not. i'm jealous of everyone, and at the same time i'm so thankful i'm not them. i'm running on insecurity and a fear of not being good enough. i'm running out of gas. i don't even care right now, and yet i care so fucking much about all of you and what you think. i just feel miserable and ready to collapse. i honestly have too much on my plate and it's no one's fault, not even my own.
off to go medicate. god this is sucky.
umm i feel like a mess. i hate college, but i hate high school more. i hate ojai. i hate my hair. i hate my family more often than not. i'm kind of hating life. i thought spring break would be like this rejuvenating and relaxing experience, but it wasn't and it's not. i'm jealous of everyone, and at the same time i'm so thankful i'm not them. i'm running on insecurity and a fear of not being good enough. i'm running out of gas. i don't even care right now, and yet i care so fucking much about all of you and what you think. i just feel miserable and ready to collapse. i honestly have too much on my plate and it's no one's fault, not even my own.
off to go medicate. god this is sucky.