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happiness fades and i'm exactly where i always am. i honestly think i have like depression. i'm not trying to be dramatic or be anything. i just know that i haven't felt good in a year. i think if you come home from some awesome show sobbing there's a problem. i feel like i have nothing in every sense. and i knwo that that's awful and i have a lot. but i feel so alone and unhappy and sad and scared and i can't do anythign about anything. all i can do is cry which i've been doing plenty of lately.