And don't reply to this one going "Oh, I reply to your journals, See, I just did!" And expect to make me feel like I have any Friends as a Result
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You may have Won this Round, Oh Mel, But I will take my Revenge one day!
Err, I mean, I didn't mean to imply that I actually have no friends, or that you in particular aren't my friend. I was just feeling lonely at the time I wrote the post.
The Funny thing about Emotions is that they have no Bearing on Reality. You feel pretty much exactly the way you intend to feel. Sometimes, everything seems to Suck, and that's just how it is. You know, on those days when some non-great Things happen, and you get into a bad mood, and suddenly everything you like looks as though it's mocking you. That Happy Little Dolphin on your Keychain. How can he be Happy when the World sucks so bad? The Drew Carey Show. You thought it was Funny yesterday, but now it's a bunch of Drunken idiots who accomplish nothing and just Pratter on about their own problems when your problems are so much more important.
But none of that is the Truth - It didn't actually happen. The Dolphin isn't Smiling just to insult you, it Always Smiled. That's why you bought it. The Drew Carey Show hasn't changed into a Crappy version of itself, Both Episodes were Pretty Stupid. The only thing that's changed is you. When you change, the whole World changes.
When I wrote this journal Entry, I was feeling particularly un-Befriended. I probably hadn't talked to anybody in a while, and going on LJ and finding no new Replies must have been Aggrivating. When my State changed to one in which I felt very Alone, the whole World changed to one in which I had no friends. Of course, it only Seemed like I had no friends, because my Emotions can't change who you are or how anyone feels about me.
Anyway. I try to make it a point to see things the way they are, and not the way my emotions tell me to see them. I learned this at a young age, from my Mother. Whenever she was Stressed about something, she would push me aside (Not literally) and make me feel very unimportant. When Mom was trying to get something done in a hurry, it didn't matter how quickly I did what she asked, it wasn't fast enough. It didn't matter what I did on my own to try to help, she would take my help and then tell me to do something else, without a thank you or even an acknowledgement of my Existence. I learned that when Mom was stressed, it was best to just take a Walk around the Block a couple of times.
So I decided I didn't want to be like that. I would treat people the same no matter what mood I was in. I would recognize that just because my Day wasn't very good so far, Treating other people like Crap would neither improve the Quality of my day nor help me make any Friends.
That's why, when you ask me How it's going, I usually reply with "Life is Good". Sometimes it's because I really honestly feel that Life is good, and other times, it's a reminder that Life really is Good, when taken as a Whole. It reminds me that No, I do not regret having been born. No, I do not long for the Sweet embrace of Death. Even though today has been really Bad, and it is not the only Bad day I've ever had, the Good days are still there, Waiting for me in the Future. It reminds me that The World is seen through Biased Eyes, and it is only what I make of it. You know, today wasn't so bad after all. It could have been Worse. Any day that Could have been Worse wasn't as bad as it could have been. Sometimes I think of how Today could have been Worse, and redefine my Definition of "Bad Day" accordingly. "Well, I could have been Attacked by a Bear, Caught Hepasyphilghonorea, Been extradited to Texas and put on Death Row, Mocked by a Frenchman, and become SO Smelly that all my Friends deserted me, Even the ones that I only know online. Now THAT would have been a Bad Day.
Err, Wait. I've gone on for a long time. Point ... My point! That's right, the world is what you make of it. More Accuratly, the World is how you Feel about it. Change yourself, and you change the world.
Err, I mean, I didn't mean to imply that I actually have no friends, or that you in particular aren't my friend. I was just feeling lonely at the time I wrote the post.
The Funny thing about Emotions is that they have no Bearing on Reality. You feel pretty much exactly the way you intend to feel. Sometimes, everything seems to Suck, and that's just how it is. You know, on those days when some non-great Things happen, and you get into a bad mood, and suddenly everything you like looks as though it's mocking you. That Happy Little Dolphin on your Keychain. How can he be Happy when the World sucks so bad? The Drew Carey Show. You thought it was Funny yesterday, but now it's a bunch of Drunken idiots who accomplish nothing and just Pratter on about their own problems when your problems are so much more important.
But none of that is the Truth - It didn't actually happen. The Dolphin isn't Smiling just to insult you, it Always Smiled. That's why you bought it. The Drew Carey Show hasn't changed into a Crappy version of itself, Both Episodes were Pretty Stupid. The only thing that's changed is you. When you change, the whole World changes.
When I wrote this journal Entry, I was feeling particularly un-Befriended. I probably hadn't talked to anybody in a while, and going on LJ and finding no new Replies must have been Aggrivating. When my State changed to one in which I felt very Alone, the whole World changed to one in which I had no friends. Of course, it only Seemed like I had no friends, because my Emotions can't change who you are or how anyone feels about me.
Anyway. I try to make it a point to see things the way they are, and not the way my emotions tell me to see them. I learned this at a young age, from my Mother. Whenever she was Stressed about something, she would push me aside (Not literally) and make me feel very unimportant. When Mom was trying to get something done in a hurry, it didn't matter how quickly I did what she asked, it wasn't fast enough. It didn't matter what I did on my own to try to help, she would take my help and then tell me to do something else, without a thank you or even an acknowledgement of my Existence. I learned that when Mom was stressed, it was best to just take a Walk around the Block a couple of times.
So I decided I didn't want to be like that. I would treat people the same no matter what mood I was in. I would recognize that just because my Day wasn't very good so far, Treating other people like Crap would neither improve the Quality of my day nor help me make any Friends.
That's why, when you ask me How it's going, I usually reply with "Life is Good". Sometimes it's because I really honestly feel that Life is good, and other times, it's a reminder that Life really is Good, when taken as a Whole. It reminds me that No, I do not regret having been born. No, I do not long for the Sweet embrace of Death. Even though today has been really Bad, and it is not the only Bad day I've ever had, the Good days are still there, Waiting for me in the Future. It reminds me that The World is seen through Biased Eyes, and it is only what I make of it. You know, today wasn't so bad after all. It could have been Worse. Any day that Could have been Worse wasn't as bad as it could have been. Sometimes I think of how Today could have been Worse, and redefine my Definition of "Bad Day" accordingly. "Well, I could have been Attacked by a Bear, Caught Hepasyphilghonorea, Been extradited to Texas and put on Death Row, Mocked by a Frenchman, and become SO Smelly that all my Friends deserted me, Even the ones that I only know online. Now THAT would have been a Bad Day.
Err, Wait. I've gone on for a long time. Point ... My point! That's right, the world is what you make of it. More Accuratly, the World is how you Feel about it. Change yourself, and you change the world.
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