Rain
I just came in after hours of wandering around in the rain. I ended up at Dairy Queen where I used to work, and Mark was cool and went to Wawa for me. He's also the guy who saved my book from Jill, who would have ripped my balls off if it weren't for the fact that She was still knocked the hell out from ecstasy. Bill bought 52 pills. What an idiot... Anyway, I was walking home and started thinking about Mickey in Lancaster. I'm not sure if he knows it, but he's basically my role model. He definitely found the secret to life here in Stone Harbor, and now that he's leaving for New York this winter it's my turn. I think I've already found the answers he did, but I need to follow through on them. Thinking about him of course led me to think about Kate, and why there's not a girl like that in my life. I wanted more than anything to come home out of the rain and find some amazing girl waiting there with hot food and a movie, but of course that didn't happen. Of course, Mickey's probably more interested in getting his balls sucked, but at least he found a girl that was willing to do it for him. Katha was sort of what I wanted, even as a friend. I havn't talked to her in close to two years now though. I just feel like talking to her, or maybe Adria or So Yeon or others of course, but they're all in other countries, other states. I need someone right here in front of me, but at least talking to my friends online is better than sitting alone watching bad TV. I have plenty to do with myself: my books, drawing, guitar, but I'm too damned lazy right now. I'll bet anything I feel great tommarow though, all my friends get back, maybe we can go to Sea Isle or Wildwood. I need to take a loan from Harris to fix my bike, and buy another that got stolen. That makes four bikes in one year? Great jeorb there Chris, great jeorb... I feel like I'm VH1 Behind the Mucic: "This is when his life took a turn for the worse..." Nice downward spiral. Nothing bad really even happened though, I guess this is all just anxiety from my Grandparents or something like that. They can never chill out. If a bike gets stolen and I replace it legitamately, was there ever a problem in the first place? Do they really need to keep nagging all the time? I should get something to eat now, as I havn't had much yet all day. Pizza sounds good right now, then maybe I can pass out on the sofa watching Kenshin. Life doesn't sound too bad thinking about it that way...