italian word games, fart machines and friends.
so yesterday was the first day of school. it was okay i guess. i like my italian class and oceanography is cute. we looked at whale bones this morning and i played with some guy's fart machine and it made my day.
last night i called up joel and we went to chipotle which seems to be our reoccuring hangout since it's right off the highway. i've been friends with joel since i was in the eighth grade when we were in this stupid musical called "once upon a matress". But you know what i am really glad we've been consistently good friends over the years. i really respect him and it's weird to think that it probably is one of my longest running friendships. i feel like throughout my life my best friends are kind of like relationships because it seems like they come and go in and out of my life like lovers do, and when it comes to having best friends i've had a lot of lovers i guess. even me and emma are hitting a rough spot lately i think and it makes me sad. i'm a best friend slut.
List of my best friends since as far back as i can remember:
1. Sasha (age 4) - we both lived in the church owned building called upsher house in dc because we either didn't have a house or were looking for one. we lived in my dad's office for a while i think. we would play dolls together. she had this tricycle and she would ride it all day and i never had any toys of my own so i was used to sharing but she was an only child so she never would let me ride it, even when she wasn't riding it. so one time i just got fed up and just started riding it because i was sick of her being a selfish brat. then she took the bike by the handle bars and started shaking it. So i punched her in the mouth. she started crying. my dad later told me when i was older that he had actually watched the whole event unfold from a window upstairs with my brother. they just laughed and didn't do anything haha.
2. Tina/valentina (age 5) - she was the girl next door. i always told her how much i loved her hair and so one time she cornrowed mine and braided it. once i wasn't wearing shoes in her backyard and i stepped on a bee. one time her older brother stuck marshmellows in my hair. one time i peed on their bathroom floor and blamed it on her little brother. we always drank kool-aid. i liked the way she laughed. one time she took me to bible summer camp with her and we all made crucifixes out of popsicle sticks and glued smiling jesuses on it. then they moved awayyyyyyy and i haven't seen her in a long time.
3. Katie Buchanan (age 5) - she was the girl across the street. she had red hair and freckles. her mom babysat me. her brother randy would wrestle me for no reason (he scared the living shit out of me) and i remember he would beat me up and put me in a headlock and i was forced to smell his smelly arm pits. they were obsessed with nascar. they had a dog named puddin. we drank a lot of kool-aid. we ate ham and american cheese sandwiches with mayonaise every single day (probably why i hate ham and mayonaisse). her older sister was obsessed with new kids on the block and jeff gordon (number 24). we would play house in the little shed in the backyard that smelled like mothballs. her mom died of heart failure when we were 11. miss margie was like a second mother to me and i still miss her. puddin ran away shortly after that. eventually they moved away and i haven't seen katie in a long time. amy got pregnant and had a baby recently and she named it margie.
4. Sarah (age 6) - we were in kidergarten. she had green eyes, blonde hair and freckles. she would kiss me on the lips a lot. she was really nice. our brothers both played on the same kids football team so we would always play in fields and walk in the woods and what not. i told mom about how she always was kissing me on the lips and my mom said i should tell her not to do that. i was always confused because i didn't see the harm in this. later i found out her mom had a girlfriend. i think that's the first time i knew what homosexuality was. i think my mom was paranoid or something back then especially because she was still involved with the church.
5. Megan (age 7-11) - she was the quietest girl. but when we were together we had so much fun. i liked her crooked teeth. i would always sleep over her house. her mom had an affair with a black man and got pregnant and had the cutest girl in the world, lilly. her parents got divorced. her dad always wore these big rings. megan liked mariah carey and aliah so we were always listening to that. we had our own secret place called "the bamboo forest". it was littered and kind of swampy but it was ours. one time her sister was having a birthday party sleepover and all her middle school friends came over and started playing spin the bottle but then everyone just started making out. some girl stepped on my hair by accident and i started crying. no one made out with me because i was 8. megan moved to cullpepper and i didn't see her for awhile but then i got invited to her birthday party sleepover in eighth grade. it wasn't the same as her other sleepovers when we were younger. we stayed in her room the whole night listened to some snoop dogg and the three girls talked about the guys they had sex with. it still made me nostalgic though. me and megan went on the roof and talked about the old days. i got into contact with her again on myspace and met up with her at the mall about a year ago and we basically just talked about weed the whole time since that seemed to be the only thing we had in common anymore and then we met these three guys who were rolling on ecstacy and started talking to them. one of them looked like mickey mouse because his pupils were dialated and his face and lips were white.
6. Rachel (age 12-14) - oh this girl. our mom's were friends so i remember playing with her in sprinklers when we were 4. but when we were 12 we became best friends. we both were moonies so we both didn't have boyfriends or anything but then started going out with this guy named fluffy. we went to the mall with him and ate funnel cake. she liked the smashing pumpkins and i liked the white stripes and we often had fights about what band was better. we would go sledding down this huge ass hill and fall off and land on ice and get knocked around pretty badly. she broke up with fluffy and started going out with david. her parents found out and got pisssssed because they were strict. she broke up with david and got really depressed and cut his name on her arm. i was like oh fuck what should i dooo??. she started going out with john. she would sneak out of the house to make out with him in the park. he was 19 and she was 13 or something. one time she manipulated me into sneaking out with her so she could make out with him in the park. we jumped out the window and left it open and i cut my back someone on the window and it hurt like balls. then she made out with him in the park. his friend came too and was hitting on me but i was like, dude i'm 13 and your like 19 and he was like oh yeah so he took a nap in his car and i sat on the slide and looked at the stars and listened to those noises that faces make when they are trying to eat another face. then we went back to her house. the light in her room was on and the window was shit. the door in the front was locked. we got CAUGHT. her mom answered the door and started freaking out at us and said she called the police and that he was coming over. he was all like, young ladies, don't be out in the middle of the night and we were like yes sir. she broke up with john. she tried to kill herself by taking a lot of tylonel so she was in the hospital for awhile. i was really upset around this time in my life because she was so depressed all the time. her parents sent her to this stupid moonie boarding school in nevada so i didn't get to see her a lot. she shaved her head before she left though haha. she came back and i went to highschool with her a little bit of my sophmore year before she dropped out. i think the summer before her sophmore year her parents tried to set up this wacko arranged marriage with some boy in west virginia and they sent her there and she was miserable. she introduced me to marijuana. it was her birthday, we were in this guy's car and we smoked out of a red bull can. we went back to her house. we hitched a tent in her living room. in the morning we smoked some more in the woods and walked to mcdonalds where it took me ten minutes to order a chocolate milkshake. we went back to her house and watch yellow submarine. FABULOUS. one time we got high and then ate dinner with her family and her little twin sisters made an upside down pineapple cake and the whole thing was very weird. I haven't seen much of her since she dropped out of highschool. she's gotten in a lot of trouble with her parents. one time, before she dropped out of highschool, she came into the eddas room and her eye was bloodshot and extremely red. i asked her what happened and she said her dad hit her in the head with a coffee cup. she's been in an abusive relationship with this scumbag named sam and i don't know what to do because he is so controlling and she never calls me and i don't even know if her number works anymore. i really miss her. :(
(whoa after i wrote this i noticed she was online, talking to her as i speak!! Oh my god. She is saying how she can't break up with her boyfriend because he is controlling and that's why she doesn't have any friends and how she needs therapy too. Damn. I need to help her right now this guy is insane.)
7. Eleana (15-16) - superficial, materialistic and manipulative. That's all really. and her dog would always hump my leg.
Laurene (14 - ???) - she paints amazing paintings. she's one of those cute half korean girls who always wears the right things. she is one of the most loving and caring people i've ever met, she can get along with anyone. We go on dates to coffeeshops and bob evans. we have had our best moments in west virginia. she's my salt shaker girl. she's the cutest driver eveeeer. i love her mom. i love her. we make funny faces in mirrors. we used to spoon and cuddle when we were married but now it's complicated haha. she's a junior at corcohran. you would like her probably if you met her. and of course, we'll always have pie.
9. Emma Quinn (16 - ???) This girl. Is my soulmate. She's crazy. Just like me. We are sisters. We talk about bois and bitches and make noises and talk about what we wish guys would do to us. you hurd right. not for us but to us jk jk jk. and we like playing music together. I really love her and we've had too many crazy memories to recall. One of my favorite memories though it's short but sweet: we were driving in her car stoned and jimi hendrix's are you experienced comes on and everything in that moment made me cry for some reason. Oh wait another good one: we smoked in her back yard and watched back to the future and then it starts pouring so we go out in the middle of the street and get soaking wet and then take off all our clothes except our underwear and just start dancing. then her mom came home and looked through emma's purse and found the "how to cultivate marijuana" book i gave her and emma's beautiful bowl. :( and i honestly don't think it's been the same since. whatever happens though, i think i loved that girl the best out of all my girls. and if we drift apart, it's just meant to be, but it doesn't mean i don't love her any less. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. so fucking sentimental i could cry. we are going to own richmond me and emma emma and me. :))) haha today we found out ms. rethmel our choir teacher picked out this duet and it's called cats and in the song the lyrics are literally meow and have hissing noises and we FREAKED DA FUCK OUT. that song was made for us. we already did it. better.
Best fwiends fo lyfe.
Shit this was long and it's not well written at all but it was so therapuetic in so many ways. So many things have happened that we forget.
last night i called up joel and we went to chipotle which seems to be our reoccuring hangout since it's right off the highway. i've been friends with joel since i was in the eighth grade when we were in this stupid musical called "once upon a matress". But you know what i am really glad we've been consistently good friends over the years. i really respect him and it's weird to think that it probably is one of my longest running friendships. i feel like throughout my life my best friends are kind of like relationships because it seems like they come and go in and out of my life like lovers do, and when it comes to having best friends i've had a lot of lovers i guess. even me and emma are hitting a rough spot lately i think and it makes me sad. i'm a best friend slut.
List of my best friends since as far back as i can remember:
1. Sasha (age 4) - we both lived in the church owned building called upsher house in dc because we either didn't have a house or were looking for one. we lived in my dad's office for a while i think. we would play dolls together. she had this tricycle and she would ride it all day and i never had any toys of my own so i was used to sharing but she was an only child so she never would let me ride it, even when she wasn't riding it. so one time i just got fed up and just started riding it because i was sick of her being a selfish brat. then she took the bike by the handle bars and started shaking it. So i punched her in the mouth. she started crying. my dad later told me when i was older that he had actually watched the whole event unfold from a window upstairs with my brother. they just laughed and didn't do anything haha.
2. Tina/valentina (age 5) - she was the girl next door. i always told her how much i loved her hair and so one time she cornrowed mine and braided it. once i wasn't wearing shoes in her backyard and i stepped on a bee. one time her older brother stuck marshmellows in my hair. one time i peed on their bathroom floor and blamed it on her little brother. we always drank kool-aid. i liked the way she laughed. one time she took me to bible summer camp with her and we all made crucifixes out of popsicle sticks and glued smiling jesuses on it. then they moved awayyyyyyy and i haven't seen her in a long time.
3. Katie Buchanan (age 5) - she was the girl across the street. she had red hair and freckles. her mom babysat me. her brother randy would wrestle me for no reason (he scared the living shit out of me) and i remember he would beat me up and put me in a headlock and i was forced to smell his smelly arm pits. they were obsessed with nascar. they had a dog named puddin. we drank a lot of kool-aid. we ate ham and american cheese sandwiches with mayonaise every single day (probably why i hate ham and mayonaisse). her older sister was obsessed with new kids on the block and jeff gordon (number 24). we would play house in the little shed in the backyard that smelled like mothballs. her mom died of heart failure when we were 11. miss margie was like a second mother to me and i still miss her. puddin ran away shortly after that. eventually they moved away and i haven't seen katie in a long time. amy got pregnant and had a baby recently and she named it margie.
4. Sarah (age 6) - we were in kidergarten. she had green eyes, blonde hair and freckles. she would kiss me on the lips a lot. she was really nice. our brothers both played on the same kids football team so we would always play in fields and walk in the woods and what not. i told mom about how she always was kissing me on the lips and my mom said i should tell her not to do that. i was always confused because i didn't see the harm in this. later i found out her mom had a girlfriend. i think that's the first time i knew what homosexuality was. i think my mom was paranoid or something back then especially because she was still involved with the church.
5. Megan (age 7-11) - she was the quietest girl. but when we were together we had so much fun. i liked her crooked teeth. i would always sleep over her house. her mom had an affair with a black man and got pregnant and had the cutest girl in the world, lilly. her parents got divorced. her dad always wore these big rings. megan liked mariah carey and aliah so we were always listening to that. we had our own secret place called "the bamboo forest". it was littered and kind of swampy but it was ours. one time her sister was having a birthday party sleepover and all her middle school friends came over and started playing spin the bottle but then everyone just started making out. some girl stepped on my hair by accident and i started crying. no one made out with me because i was 8. megan moved to cullpepper and i didn't see her for awhile but then i got invited to her birthday party sleepover in eighth grade. it wasn't the same as her other sleepovers when we were younger. we stayed in her room the whole night listened to some snoop dogg and the three girls talked about the guys they had sex with. it still made me nostalgic though. me and megan went on the roof and talked about the old days. i got into contact with her again on myspace and met up with her at the mall about a year ago and we basically just talked about weed the whole time since that seemed to be the only thing we had in common anymore and then we met these three guys who were rolling on ecstacy and started talking to them. one of them looked like mickey mouse because his pupils were dialated and his face and lips were white.
6. Rachel (age 12-14) - oh this girl. our mom's were friends so i remember playing with her in sprinklers when we were 4. but when we were 12 we became best friends. we both were moonies so we both didn't have boyfriends or anything but then started going out with this guy named fluffy. we went to the mall with him and ate funnel cake. she liked the smashing pumpkins and i liked the white stripes and we often had fights about what band was better. we would go sledding down this huge ass hill and fall off and land on ice and get knocked around pretty badly. she broke up with fluffy and started going out with david. her parents found out and got pisssssed because they were strict. she broke up with david and got really depressed and cut his name on her arm. i was like oh fuck what should i dooo??. she started going out with john. she would sneak out of the house to make out with him in the park. he was 19 and she was 13 or something. one time she manipulated me into sneaking out with her so she could make out with him in the park. we jumped out the window and left it open and i cut my back someone on the window and it hurt like balls. then she made out with him in the park. his friend came too and was hitting on me but i was like, dude i'm 13 and your like 19 and he was like oh yeah so he took a nap in his car and i sat on the slide and looked at the stars and listened to those noises that faces make when they are trying to eat another face. then we went back to her house. the light in her room was on and the window was shit. the door in the front was locked. we got CAUGHT. her mom answered the door and started freaking out at us and said she called the police and that he was coming over. he was all like, young ladies, don't be out in the middle of the night and we were like yes sir. she broke up with john. she tried to kill herself by taking a lot of tylonel so she was in the hospital for awhile. i was really upset around this time in my life because she was so depressed all the time. her parents sent her to this stupid moonie boarding school in nevada so i didn't get to see her a lot. she shaved her head before she left though haha. she came back and i went to highschool with her a little bit of my sophmore year before she dropped out. i think the summer before her sophmore year her parents tried to set up this wacko arranged marriage with some boy in west virginia and they sent her there and she was miserable. she introduced me to marijuana. it was her birthday, we were in this guy's car and we smoked out of a red bull can. we went back to her house. we hitched a tent in her living room. in the morning we smoked some more in the woods and walked to mcdonalds where it took me ten minutes to order a chocolate milkshake. we went back to her house and watch yellow submarine. FABULOUS. one time we got high and then ate dinner with her family and her little twin sisters made an upside down pineapple cake and the whole thing was very weird. I haven't seen much of her since she dropped out of highschool. she's gotten in a lot of trouble with her parents. one time, before she dropped out of highschool, she came into the eddas room and her eye was bloodshot and extremely red. i asked her what happened and she said her dad hit her in the head with a coffee cup. she's been in an abusive relationship with this scumbag named sam and i don't know what to do because he is so controlling and she never calls me and i don't even know if her number works anymore. i really miss her. :(
(whoa after i wrote this i noticed she was online, talking to her as i speak!! Oh my god. She is saying how she can't break up with her boyfriend because he is controlling and that's why she doesn't have any friends and how she needs therapy too. Damn. I need to help her right now this guy is insane.)
7. Eleana (15-16) - superficial, materialistic and manipulative. That's all really. and her dog would always hump my leg.
Laurene (14 - ???) - she paints amazing paintings. she's one of those cute half korean girls who always wears the right things. she is one of the most loving and caring people i've ever met, she can get along with anyone. We go on dates to coffeeshops and bob evans. we have had our best moments in west virginia. she's my salt shaker girl. she's the cutest driver eveeeer. i love her mom. i love her. we make funny faces in mirrors. we used to spoon and cuddle when we were married but now it's complicated haha. she's a junior at corcohran. you would like her probably if you met her. and of course, we'll always have pie.
9. Emma Quinn (16 - ???) This girl. Is my soulmate. She's crazy. Just like me. We are sisters. We talk about bois and bitches and make noises and talk about what we wish guys would do to us. you hurd right. not for us but to us jk jk jk. and we like playing music together. I really love her and we've had too many crazy memories to recall. One of my favorite memories though it's short but sweet: we were driving in her car stoned and jimi hendrix's are you experienced comes on and everything in that moment made me cry for some reason. Oh wait another good one: we smoked in her back yard and watched back to the future and then it starts pouring so we go out in the middle of the street and get soaking wet and then take off all our clothes except our underwear and just start dancing. then her mom came home and looked through emma's purse and found the "how to cultivate marijuana" book i gave her and emma's beautiful bowl. :( and i honestly don't think it's been the same since. whatever happens though, i think i loved that girl the best out of all my girls. and if we drift apart, it's just meant to be, but it doesn't mean i don't love her any less. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. so fucking sentimental i could cry. we are going to own richmond me and emma emma and me. :))) haha today we found out ms. rethmel our choir teacher picked out this duet and it's called cats and in the song the lyrics are literally meow and have hissing noises and we FREAKED DA FUCK OUT. that song was made for us. we already did it. better.
Best fwiends fo lyfe.
Shit this was long and it's not well written at all but it was so therapuetic in so many ways. So many things have happened that we forget.