Well well...
Ok..since the events of April, I've truely formed into who i really am. I'm not the kid who lied about everything he was just to please everyone else around him who seemed superior. I personaly would rather be a truthful unperfect specimen, than a liar who puts on a goody-goody facade to please everyone and live up to certain standards.
I've lied so much to others and myself about what I really am (and nobody freak out, Im not like a murderer or anything) lol. I just felt like if I claimed to do certain things, or say certain things that I would be looked down upon and be pushed into that lower social chain that I was so afraid to be part of. But at this point...its the people "down there" that are the most honest in this world.
Religion has been an uphill battle for me since "there" and thats not how it goes. But I don't regret those events, because that's what made me who I really am. And I really don't care who knows it. Whoever is offended by this, needs to just deal with their ownselves.
A lot of my friends have pushed me away, and its rediculous. When we talk its like we've not spoken in ten years, or maybe that they feel convicted for talking to me? What the crap? LoL Its rediculous. Maybe they need to look in the mirror every once in a while...unless the halo they drew above their head blocks out everything else.
Reading all these past entries, makes me sick. I've had this since 9th grade and I just get so upset reading. "Was I really that naive?" kind of reaction. I've moved on. I'm almost 20 and my life has been put into such a better perspective once I started living for the better.
Therefore...I'm not the superman I claimed to be...not even the "super" kev...as it appears in my journal name. But I'm sure as HELL not quitting tryin to be the best human being I possibly can be, but Im also not going to claim to be something I'm not.
This journal is dead...null and void...the man has changed, the outlook on life has changed...therefore I am now..
trueawakening <---thats my new livejournal name.
If you want to keep up with me, add it, if this offends you...dont add it. its up to you! But Im not gonna wear this facade anymore. But add me soon and comment on here if you want on my friends list, cause it will soon become "friends only" not long after its opened. Good night everyone.
Kev... *~*~OUT~*~*
I've lied so much to others and myself about what I really am (and nobody freak out, Im not like a murderer or anything) lol. I just felt like if I claimed to do certain things, or say certain things that I would be looked down upon and be pushed into that lower social chain that I was so afraid to be part of. But at this point...its the people "down there" that are the most honest in this world.
Religion has been an uphill battle for me since "there" and thats not how it goes. But I don't regret those events, because that's what made me who I really am. And I really don't care who knows it. Whoever is offended by this, needs to just deal with their ownselves.
A lot of my friends have pushed me away, and its rediculous. When we talk its like we've not spoken in ten years, or maybe that they feel convicted for talking to me? What the crap? LoL Its rediculous. Maybe they need to look in the mirror every once in a while...unless the halo they drew above their head blocks out everything else.
Reading all these past entries, makes me sick. I've had this since 9th grade and I just get so upset reading. "Was I really that naive?" kind of reaction. I've moved on. I'm almost 20 and my life has been put into such a better perspective once I started living for the better.
Therefore...I'm not the superman I claimed to be...not even the "super" kev...as it appears in my journal name. But I'm sure as HELL not quitting tryin to be the best human being I possibly can be, but Im also not going to claim to be something I'm not.
This journal is dead...null and void...the man has changed, the outlook on life has changed...therefore I am now..
trueawakening <---thats my new livejournal name.
If you want to keep up with me, add it, if this offends you...dont add it. its up to you! But Im not gonna wear this facade anymore. But add me soon and comment on here if you want on my friends list, cause it will soon become "friends only" not long after its opened. Good night everyone.
Kev... *~*~OUT~*~*