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for whatever reason it struck me now at ten of 3 in the morning to update my journal. i guess that happens when im in a contemplative mood. im doing awesome for my first quarter shooting for 3.8 or so. ive already registered for next quarter, comp sci 2, multivariable calculus, physics 1 (i was forced into this, i couldnt test out or anything), writing and lit 2, freshman seminar, fye. i think thats it. were starting a volleyball team for the winter woot woot. now for the provacitive part. i usually describe myself as an asshole, not because of low self esteem (i also refer to myself as a genius,self deemed but genius all the same), but i guess becasue of my attitude to other people. but ive been thinking lately "Am i really an asshole?" first thing that tipped this off was that crazy broad (one of jenn's friends) stalking me virtually just so she could place a personality to a name in a story. isnt that what point of the story is? i mean thats what a story is, one person's opinion of the events and personality of people in a certain situation. but anyway i asked y she was so obsessed with me and she spazed at me. i guess i could have handled that better but she was sort of annoying me. then jenn told me that she called me arrogant. ARROGANT of all things is that a word anyone would use to describe me? so i did some investigating and found that, according to qc, arrogant does not rank high on the words i would use to describe you. that was the same basic sentiment of all the people i polled. that was the first part, the next would be bryon calling me almost daily. i mean hes a great kid but EVERY DAY. it is nice though to hear from some of my old friends. but more specificly the conversation we had about him being a vindicted son of a bitch. which i guess yeah he can be. i guess i could be at times. so that made me think a bit more. on to today, today i fixed someones computer (with no incentives), helped the other jenn with her chem and helped tom with his game. last week i drove a few people to darian park. i mean i guess now that i think about it i think i was just calling myself an asshole for almost a self image (not esteem) kind of thing. sort of that genius rebel. i guess im just rediscovering myself which a lot of us are doing at the moment. i mean dont get me wrong i like what ive got going for me right now, school's going great, im making a few friends, working for the radio, making a vb team, my ideals are strong, my plans are solid, i know what i want (for the most part) yet i cannot see any farther into the future then two weeks or a month. i guess those tests were right my driving force is spiritual development. i think thats all for now.
woot woot 4 more years!!
o yeah i joined the ieee (institute of electrical and electronics engineers) last week. so any of you with parents that need a computer engineer or know someone who needs a computer engineer for an internship send me some info.
woot woot 4 more years!!
o yeah i joined the ieee (institute of electrical and electronics engineers) last week. so any of you with parents that need a computer engineer or know someone who needs a computer engineer for an internship send me some info.