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I am at such a loss for words. I want to say something anything but I don't know what should be said. I want to talk and listen, but there is no one to talk to. I'm lonely.
I have a problem.
A harmful problem that very often goes unnoticed.
I am not completely in touch with my feelings.
Slightly numb, you might say.
I know that I am not happy, not sure why.
I know I put others before myself, guess that's just me.
Maybe this entry was pointless, maybe I should just push the notorious backspace key, as I so often do, and none of you will ever know of this. But maybe if I didn't, if I left it to look back on, I could analyze the issue and learn to fix it. It's possible the head that pains me with it's horrible ache is fixing my thoughts on it's own. Maybe what is going on is not something I can fix on my own, something that must be fixed from the outside then the in.
Basically, I am full of feelings but blind to them.
I'll write again later.
I have a problem.
A harmful problem that very often goes unnoticed.
I am not completely in touch with my feelings.
Slightly numb, you might say.
I know that I am not happy, not sure why.
I know I put others before myself, guess that's just me.
Maybe this entry was pointless, maybe I should just push the notorious backspace key, as I so often do, and none of you will ever know of this. But maybe if I didn't, if I left it to look back on, I could analyze the issue and learn to fix it. It's possible the head that pains me with it's horrible ache is fixing my thoughts on it's own. Maybe what is going on is not something I can fix on my own, something that must be fixed from the outside then the in.
Basically, I am full of feelings but blind to them.
I'll write again later.