Progression

[superhank]

Growing older is rough stuff, especially if you don't really grow up. At least it seams that way, but what do I know? I'm 25 and act like I'm still 18, my girlfriend tells me I need to grow up, that I can't live this way forever. I suppose she's right but it's hard, I got locked into the stuff I liked when I was 16, and yeah, somethings, well alot of things are different now but I still get some of the same feeling when I listen to old indie bands (think the get up kids, polvo, the anniversary) or shitty scremo (think orchid, neil perry, the assistant). I still like to do the same dumb stuff, smoke cigarettes, drink tons of booze, fuck around with drugs, play video games. I still get crazy and weird about girls but I've learned along time ago how not to get to invested into things like that much anymore. I thought things would be alot different by this age. Way more put together, maybe a real job, maybe back in college. And I thought that I'd would've happened on its own, I mean, I would be something that I'd just fall into with getting older. I mean I'm 2-5 fucking years old and I'm sitting around my apartment in Brooklyn so bored I can't pay attention to a whole movie on netflix.

Are things ever going to change? Do I care? When, if ever, will I?