AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!1!!!!!
ok i am going to try to get all of this out into a journal entry for the whole world to read i mean there is no point in pretending. i hopefully never do soooooooooooooo
i am sweating.
I AM FREAAAAAKING OUT.
haha. seriously with two weeks to go it has hit me that this is actually happening and we are not just talking about it anymore and so many things could go wrong. I guess this is the same with all big things in life, you talk about it and talk about it and look forward to it but you are always looking at it off in the distance and you aren't ready for it to actually happen.
plus i am already thinking about when it is over and i have to go back to school in the fall and how much i dont want that to happen. i didn't transfer last year because i wanted to study abroad this semester and if i transferred i would have had to wait.
so here are all of the things that could go wrong:
NEVER GET THERE... like get in a car accident before i go. haha... ok its not funny!
lose my passport with visa.
miss the flight
plane crash! haha ok i am not anticipating this but i mean in the rarest of situations it does happen.
forget to pack something realllly important
NOT SPEAK ANY POLISH... ok this will happen.
get lost in berlin/ not be able to find the hostel.
lose my luggage aka my life.
get robbed before we even get to poland.
get on the wrong train because we don't speak german.
and WORST OF ALL- hate it and not want to get out of my bed ever.
ok
i feel a lot better now that it is written out and of course the only one that i really have to worry about is the last one. and i know what that feels like... after a week in italy we all basically felt that way for at least a day. you just want to stay in the hotel all day.
i just want summer and my friends.... forever.
i'm pretty sure this panic is normal but that makes it even more annoying.
i was looking forward to culture shock and being in a completely different place and now every day i get more ... what is that emotional problem where you go from super happy to crazy angry? i can't remember. probably because i now have it. hahahaha.........
one minute i am so excited i can't be in jackson county for another second and then i am so nervous i want to throw up.
i am sweating.
I AM FREAAAAAKING OUT.
haha. seriously with two weeks to go it has hit me that this is actually happening and we are not just talking about it anymore and so many things could go wrong. I guess this is the same with all big things in life, you talk about it and talk about it and look forward to it but you are always looking at it off in the distance and you aren't ready for it to actually happen.
plus i am already thinking about when it is over and i have to go back to school in the fall and how much i dont want that to happen. i didn't transfer last year because i wanted to study abroad this semester and if i transferred i would have had to wait.
so here are all of the things that could go wrong:
NEVER GET THERE... like get in a car accident before i go. haha... ok its not funny!
lose my passport with visa.
miss the flight
plane crash! haha ok i am not anticipating this but i mean in the rarest of situations it does happen.
forget to pack something realllly important
NOT SPEAK ANY POLISH... ok this will happen.
get lost in berlin/ not be able to find the hostel.
lose my luggage aka my life.
get robbed before we even get to poland.
get on the wrong train because we don't speak german.
and WORST OF ALL- hate it and not want to get out of my bed ever.
ok
i feel a lot better now that it is written out and of course the only one that i really have to worry about is the last one. and i know what that feels like... after a week in italy we all basically felt that way for at least a day. you just want to stay in the hotel all day.
i just want summer and my friends.... forever.
i'm pretty sure this panic is normal but that makes it even more annoying.
i was looking forward to culture shock and being in a completely different place and now every day i get more ... what is that emotional problem where you go from super happy to crazy angry? i can't remember. probably because i now have it. hahahaha.........
one minute i am so excited i can't be in jackson county for another second and then i am so nervous i want to throw up.