so as another day passes...
well i just came back from gram's. she doesn't look the best, but she doesn't look horrible. she knows what is going on around her and i think i have finally got that it may be her time to go. as much as i don't want her to leave me, i know that it is worse for her to be in that bed like that. thank god she is not in any pain cuz that would make things so much worse. i spend most of the time crying and it sucks, but i have calmed down a lot seeing as my b-day was yesterday and i went out and had so fun with my 3 best, i really needed that, it was definately a good thing!
i got a card from steve today for my b-day. i love that he cares and isn't like some of my other friends who's b-days were last week adn i called them and they can't be bothered to call me. i believe the statment that was made frequently but this one in particular used to be "Twins are for Life, not just Proximity." or how about..."You are always number one, tip top priority." hmm what happened with that... o right i never got an explaination...but i think i got it figured it out...this someone no longer needed me because for the time being, i was the one with the problems and i was taking away from the spotlight of their problems. right. but that is just what i think. i guess i'll never know for real seeing as i never get returned phone calls... i only get part of a lj entry that says "Communication...not yelling...is key..." at least i was making an effort to communicate whereas i was getting nothing in return. and lets mention how many e-mails and phone calls i made before i started yelling...maybe all details should be told and not just tried to make me look like a bitch.
well i guess i am done. and thanks to all of you who have been there for me lately and putting up with all that is happening, especially those days when i just sit and cry and say nothing. i appreciate everything you are all doing for me adn i just wanna say thanks and thanks for making my b-day so special! don't forget beach (weather permitting) bingo and camping out on sat! see you then kids! :)
i got a card from steve today for my b-day. i love that he cares and isn't like some of my other friends who's b-days were last week adn i called them and they can't be bothered to call me. i believe the statment that was made frequently but this one in particular used to be "Twins are for Life, not just Proximity." or how about..."You are always number one, tip top priority." hmm what happened with that... o right i never got an explaination...but i think i got it figured it out...this someone no longer needed me because for the time being, i was the one with the problems and i was taking away from the spotlight of their problems. right. but that is just what i think. i guess i'll never know for real seeing as i never get returned phone calls... i only get part of a lj entry that says "Communication...not yelling...is key..." at least i was making an effort to communicate whereas i was getting nothing in return. and lets mention how many e-mails and phone calls i made before i started yelling...maybe all details should be told and not just tried to make me look like a bitch.
well i guess i am done. and thanks to all of you who have been there for me lately and putting up with all that is happening, especially those days when i just sit and cry and say nothing. i appreciate everything you are all doing for me adn i just wanna say thanks and thanks for making my b-day so special! don't forget beach (weather permitting) bingo and camping out on sat! see you then kids! :)