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Boy, life never seems to get dull. Just when I think yeah, it's dull, something comes along to razzle me. Honesty from a spouse is what you hope for, but sometimes I wonder if I would be better off not knowing at all. Luckily, my husband caught me on a good day, and I was able to handle some truth. My hubby has been fantasizing about a coworker, and although nothing has happened, he felt he needed to tell me. I debated on whether or not to share this here, but in reality, who hasn't gone thru this at one time. At least the guy trusts me enough to tell me, he must think that I won't blow up. That's pretty good for being 4-5 months pregnant. I'm glad he has that kind of confidence in me. Either that, or his guilt is just eating him alive and has to get it out before he bursts into flames. Hah. Poor guy.
I told him how I had gone thru something similiar awhile back, but didn't tell him. Just fantasizing, I never slept with the guy. I didn't tell him because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. Nothing was ever going to happen, I just had a crush on a guy and had to work close to him. I could never cheat on my husband, I care about him way too much. I would divorce him before that ever happened, and I'm just not willing to go thru all the trouble, not just that but I love him very much. We are best friends. The whole ordeal sparked a conversation that took us back to our younger days, and brought back some old memories I had/he had forgotten.
After that conversation we both felt better, and I felt that I had built a little more trust in him than I had before. I think he felt the same. I think his mind was trying to escape all the drama going on right now with this baby coming. It is a life changing experience, and both of us have some anxiety disorders and depression we battle with. But I never anticipated our anxieties/depression to become heightened during my pregnancy. I had heard of post pardum depression, and women struggling after the baby was born, but you just don't hear much about prenatal depression. But I'm seeing someone to help with those issues before they get severe, and I am so grateful. I guess I have always been a prideful person, someone who doesn't like to ask for help when I need it. But that is silly, isn't it? People need people. Now I feel like I can go on with things... I hope you all are having a great day. Hugs, Katina
I told him how I had gone thru something similiar awhile back, but didn't tell him. Just fantasizing, I never slept with the guy. I didn't tell him because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. Nothing was ever going to happen, I just had a crush on a guy and had to work close to him. I could never cheat on my husband, I care about him way too much. I would divorce him before that ever happened, and I'm just not willing to go thru all the trouble, not just that but I love him very much. We are best friends. The whole ordeal sparked a conversation that took us back to our younger days, and brought back some old memories I had/he had forgotten.
After that conversation we both felt better, and I felt that I had built a little more trust in him than I had before. I think he felt the same. I think his mind was trying to escape all the drama going on right now with this baby coming. It is a life changing experience, and both of us have some anxiety disorders and depression we battle with. But I never anticipated our anxieties/depression to become heightened during my pregnancy. I had heard of post pardum depression, and women struggling after the baby was born, but you just don't hear much about prenatal depression. But I'm seeing someone to help with those issues before they get severe, and I am so grateful. I guess I have always been a prideful person, someone who doesn't like to ask for help when I need it. But that is silly, isn't it? People need people. Now I feel like I can go on with things... I hope you all are having a great day. Hugs, Katina