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so thanksgiving is just around the corner. i get to go to mandas. yay! i dont have to spend a holiday with someone i utterly dispise. and i get to meet a certain guy. lol jeez. (manda i have stuff to tell you about when i told C that i was gonna meet him.)
anyways. im in typing class, as i always am at this time of the day. i have about 15 more minutes of class. about. i'm exhausted. and hungry. i want this period to end already so i can eat. lol.
we, Peer Helping, are going to Lincon today. should be...interesting. i dunno. dont get me wrong, special people can be some of the sweetest people, i just dont know if my temper/patience will hold. everyone had their own ideas of what peer helping was gonna be this year. breanna thought that it was gonna be all working with lil kids, i thought it was gonna be all working with high school kids. i dunno. its odd. lil kids can be ok. i guess. but im shy around normal older people, lil kids dont make it easier. they can see the real us. what if i dont even know the real me? ahhh.
couples are popping up around school again. makes me feel..unwanted. no guy wants me. i try flirting or whatever but its like the ones i really like only see me as a friend/sister type. its sad. i makes friends with guys too easily. friend zones suck. fo' sho'.
i feel disconnected from one of my best friends. it seems like she only really wants to talk when she needs something i have and has to be in my presence to use it. otherwise i get an icky vibe from her and she'd prefer to hang out with someone that totally cheeses me off. makes me sad. i'm just glad i still have 2 that still wanna talk to me.
oh well i guess i'm done for now.
anyways. im in typing class, as i always am at this time of the day. i have about 15 more minutes of class. about. i'm exhausted. and hungry. i want this period to end already so i can eat. lol.
we, Peer Helping, are going to Lincon today. should be...interesting. i dunno. dont get me wrong, special people can be some of the sweetest people, i just dont know if my temper/patience will hold. everyone had their own ideas of what peer helping was gonna be this year. breanna thought that it was gonna be all working with lil kids, i thought it was gonna be all working with high school kids. i dunno. its odd. lil kids can be ok. i guess. but im shy around normal older people, lil kids dont make it easier. they can see the real us. what if i dont even know the real me? ahhh.
couples are popping up around school again. makes me feel..unwanted. no guy wants me. i try flirting or whatever but its like the ones i really like only see me as a friend/sister type. its sad. i makes friends with guys too easily. friend zones suck. fo' sho'.
i feel disconnected from one of my best friends. it seems like she only really wants to talk when she needs something i have and has to be in my presence to use it. otherwise i get an icky vibe from her and she'd prefer to hang out with someone that totally cheeses me off. makes me sad. i'm just glad i still have 2 that still wanna talk to me.
oh well i guess i'm done for now.