Back at one.
Well here I am again. The person I loved is gone because he has becomes someone I don't know. The person I fell in love with has dissapeared, and now I'm here alone, but its time now for me to move on. I have to move on. There are no more chances.
And I do not....not...not want to be alone. It is the last thing in the world I want. I am too old to start all over again. I am too old to be dealing with this nonsense. I need to find the man I am going to marry...how can I do that when ever male I come accross only desires to hurt me and treat me like shit. I am sick of this dating crap. But now I have to start it all over again...where? Where do I find somoene to love and care for me? Is there anyone on the face of this earth that wants to do it? Is there anyone for me?
I'm really starting to think not.
This is so depressing. All I want is someone to cuddle with. Someone to hug. I can't understand why I can't have that.
Love makes me sick. Relationships make me sick. Men make me sick.
I want to cry but I have to stop. Its over. I have to stop.