...doctor, please

[superflylauri]

if i could, i'd rewind and erase. the footage is too dissappointing to survive. it pleased them, it pained me. smiling idiots sucked into secretly motivated sport. i just transfix my eyes upon his shoulderblades, pressing through cotton--- his back to me. again. and you, what lies beneath you, moving you towards all that you deny? what force cuns you into cruelty? or does it just come to you naturally? naturally, yes. Black veined grey brained

but you get all the boys.
and you get my own heart to side with you; seduced into turmoil.