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haven't written in a while. haven't really been able to think much lately about anything that isn't my film.
i hate that about my life right now and will be forever grateful when it is finally done.
things never really change these days, but a fairly large change is right around the corner. i sometimes think i should throw everything i own or love away and start clean and fresh, but i'd never be able to be that person. it just isn't me.
we got a cat. his name is larry and he is sitting on my lap as i type purring away. i love him so much already and it's only been a week. he is a sweet sweet man. or cat.
i love the game guitar hero. it is amazing and i want to play it all the time.
my final culture shock of my college career is officially over. it was strange being there mostly because i havent done it in so long. i realized i really know so few people at purchase, it's shocking. like culture shock. so maybe, for the first year ever the title of the festival actually made sense. the national were amazing. i forgot how fun it is to get drunk at a show and just scream and dance and not care what anyone thinks. it was a much needed release.
the end is so weird and sad and beautiful. how did this all go by so fast?
characters from past lives creep up with reminders. it's off putting, but amazing to be able to be emotionally free. i didn't know that i had it in me, but finally it all means nothing. "me not caring is the best thing happening to you." perfect.
i am so much stronger these days. maybe it's all the obsessive work, or the better sense of self, but i'm finally feeling like i dont need anyone to hold me up, but me. it's pretty incredible. here's to hoping it lasts
i hate that about my life right now and will be forever grateful when it is finally done.
things never really change these days, but a fairly large change is right around the corner. i sometimes think i should throw everything i own or love away and start clean and fresh, but i'd never be able to be that person. it just isn't me.
we got a cat. his name is larry and he is sitting on my lap as i type purring away. i love him so much already and it's only been a week. he is a sweet sweet man. or cat.
i love the game guitar hero. it is amazing and i want to play it all the time.
my final culture shock of my college career is officially over. it was strange being there mostly because i havent done it in so long. i realized i really know so few people at purchase, it's shocking. like culture shock. so maybe, for the first year ever the title of the festival actually made sense. the national were amazing. i forgot how fun it is to get drunk at a show and just scream and dance and not care what anyone thinks. it was a much needed release.
the end is so weird and sad and beautiful. how did this all go by so fast?
characters from past lives creep up with reminders. it's off putting, but amazing to be able to be emotionally free. i didn't know that i had it in me, but finally it all means nothing. "me not caring is the best thing happening to you." perfect.
i am so much stronger these days. maybe it's all the obsessive work, or the better sense of self, but i'm finally feeling like i dont need anyone to hold me up, but me. it's pretty incredible. here's to hoping it lasts